vivid imagination

When I was a little kid I liked to play, mostly by myself, and let my imagination guide me.

when I went to highschool I had to cycle ( about a 45min cycle) to school. after about 2 years cycling with friends, I ended up cycling to school alone almost everytime. I actually enjoyed this more, just put the volume on my ipod to max and make up stories in my mind. most of the times these "stories" are fantasy-based or scifi, but also events from the past ( not specifically happy or sad events) where i would've acted different than I actually did.

I'm 24 now and sometimes sit in my room listening to music day dreaming away.

I almost feel like i could've written a hundred novels, and might actually try to put one of those stories on papers. If only I knew how good dialogues go

i'm wondering if more people on here (still) have a big fantasy.

I've long maintained that music listening is my utmost addiction. Which, in the grand scheme of things, isn't a bad addiction to have. The downside to this is that a song will remain playing in my head long after my headphones or speakers silence, and I'll even catch myself humming or whistling stuff at random intervals.

Similar to you, I daydream as well with my headphones on. From a very young age, I would imagine a certain movie or narrative with the music I was listening to, or imagine that a certain song would be perfect to describe a character, scene or film. Therefore, I used to come up with "soundtracks" of music I felt would encapsulate shows, movies or characters that interested me. That, or I would imagine what would happen if a show, movie or game used a favorite song of mine to emphasize key plot points.

I find myself doing that to this day, it seems. In fact, the music I listen to is one of my greatest creative inspirations, whether through writing or media production.

In my honest opinion there is nothing wrong with having an active imagination in your 20's. Society often associates imaginations with children, but being imaginative often lets us express our creativity in great ways.

"And the wrong words make you listen
In this criminal world
Remember it's true, loyalty is valuable
But our lives are valuable too"
DAVID BOWIE

Althuzia, thanks for posting this. I grew up on a farm, had to walk 1/4 mile to the bus stop and wait in the rain for it. I entertained myself constantly in my mind. There is nothing wrong with day dreaming. Artistic people do it all the time. And sometimes our own company is better than others that just get negative on us. I see myself living 600 years ago with the Native American Indians in perfect harmony with nature. LOL.... tc

I don't have AvPD, but I've been like that my entire life.

It started around 4th grade, I think, had a boombox with radio and cassette player/recorder. I would record music from the radio onto cassette tapes and then listen to the cassette tapes over and over for hours, usually while pacing in circles in my room.

Throughout pretty much my entire teen years I was known for always having a pair of big headphones on my head, I never went anywhere without them. When not around others, I would just walk/pace and listen to music while daydreaming.

Continued onward into adulthood. Still to this day I spend on average 1-3 hours almost every night listening to music and daydreaming.

I identify a lot with what I have read about Schizoid Personality Disorder in regards to their "secret inner world" and the concept of preferring fantasy worlds, stories, friends and experiences, as well as having inner emotional attachments and experiences with those fantasies - yet having a very hard time feeling engaged in the real world or forming real life attachments.

There are some "characters" and worlds in my mind that have been with me for over a decade at this point, and I am always looking for new inspiring material to absorb into my world. My inner world is like an inner universe that is ever-expanding and fleshing out.

If I watch a show, it's not to enjoy the show, but rather to harvest material that I like from the show. Characters, places, concepts, etc. Typically the same with movies, anime, books, artwork, etc. My "crushes" in high school gave me no desire to even talk to whoever I was "crushing" on. I just wanted to absorb them into my mind, and then I would have long, intense romances with their carbon copy and enjoy it as though it were real.

I'm not sure if anything else about SPD applies to me, but I sure do relate to that aspect.

i daydream all day long-i'm sure its from my illness although-i can't concentrate on anything but music, and i do play the piano and read music but i'm not all that great anymore

I don't see engaging in pipe dreams and creative imagination as a bad thing at all. I just wish I had the confidence to bring some of those dreams into reality! Life would be a whole lot better if I did. However, I tend to have dreams I just don't act upon - and that bothers me.