[Playgirlluvpup]

I always was a single parent of two. I worked 3 jobs and did 72 hours shift! And I ranned 11miles a day everyday! I never needed meds and I never knew the severity of Bipolar! I knew I had manic depression..never crossed my mind it was Bipolar. So in 2010 I got married to a military man, had a new baby and moved 3k miles away from home. I lost my jobs, I could not run, and I was married. I tried to commit suicide! I was in mixed state manic mode all day everyday. I had knife scratches all over my arms. I was crying n hiding in the corner of the bathroom yelling that my husband hated me. For 6 months I went tru a bunch of medicines and a bunch of jobs!! I could not find that high I use to get..Rush!! Well finally last September I got a job offer as a substitute teacher and I found the fun of Zumba! I am working full time..running everyday..doing zumba and I am a mother of 3! I keep my house spotless and I make home made dinner. I am on a GO GO schedule. My medicine is my GO GO schedule!! I think as a bipolar individual you have to find a healthy rush high. I am happy to be back as my self. My husband says he could never understand but he says as longest it makes me happy he is happy.

[venusss]

Oh, I agree that idle mind and nothing to do is the worst you can do it yourself. Nothingness kills.

Glad you found something to keep you going.