[sfu454]

Just wanted to introduce myself. My name is Stacey. I am 30 years old and I have suffered from depression for over a decade. I was re-diagnosed with Bipolar in Jan 09. Since then my life has been going down hill. I feel like I can't control anything anymore, and I hate my life for the most part. When I am around others, I put on a happy face so they don't ask "What's wrong". I don't want to talk about it, because it makes me cry. I guess that's a little too much info. I joined here because I thought that maybe this would help a little. We'll see...

[Amazonmom]

Hi Stacey!

There are quite a few of us recently diagnosed Bipolar folk here. It's safe to say whatever you need to say here.

Talking here sure helps me, because I sure don't like to talk about it to many people in person.

[thinker22]

Hi. I'm also 30 and got diagnosed this year (June). Welcome.

I've suffered depression much of my life as well.

You're not alone. My moods have been out of control for months now. I can't wait to find the right meds already!

Are you taking meds? Do you have a therapist? A psych doc? I guess you probably do if you got diagnosed recently.

Take care and feel free to vent or ask questions or anything. Everyone on this forum I've met has been very nice and understanding.

We're in this together. Sorry if that sounds corny, but it really does help to stay in touch with others who are going through or have gone through similar things.

[gravyyy]

Welcome!!! This is a great place. It's nice to be able to come somewhere to vent or ask opinions among people who know what you're going through. The scheduled chats are nice to go to as well once you get enough posts up in the forums.

I am 26 and was diagnosed almost 2 years ago so I'm kinda new to this whole bipolar thing as well. It's nice to know we're kinda all in this together so to speak. Take care and please post as much as you need.

[sfu454]

I'm not sure what to say. All I know is that i hate being this way. I cry all day everyday. I don't want to do anything. I just want it to stop now! I'm tired and I want to give up. Nothing in this world is worth living like this! I should be dead from crying so much! I have meds, I have a Pdoc, nothing seems to work. I don't know what else to do. If it weren't the thought of my Mother being devastated I would end everything. She's the only reason. I don't want to leave her sad.

[Berries]

Originally Posted by sfu454

If it weren't the thought of my Mother being devastated I would end everything. She's the only reason. I don't want to leave her sad.

(((((sfu454))))) Hold on to that. It would rip her apart if you ended it all.

I'm so very sorry you are having such an awful time right now.

Welcome to PC. Please keep posting--rant away, vent away, read other's encourgement, emphathy and support.
We CARE!

[bridgie]

This has been a great place to just let things out and get supportive thoughts from others. I'm glad I found this site I hope you will be too.