[BNLsMOM]

I have a bunch of pent up anger. I don't know why. I am working really hard to not lose it on my husband and kids, but it gets harder every day.

I just feel stressed and I asked my husband to give me a break today by staying home tonight. (He goes out with friends on Thursdays) He reacted by saying that he hasn't gone in weeks and I reminded him through clenched teeth that he skipped last week because he was going overnight with friends on Friday.

Everyone needs a day to let off steam, but he has been late from work all week. (evil clients) I just need one day where I can sit and put up my feet and let someone else take care of homework, dinner, baths and bed.

I feel like I might be on a down swing, and I want to rest and do kind things for myself to try to prevent it from going down too much.

So he went out with the guys and I am sitting here. The kids have gone to bed and the dog has gone out at least 10 times right now and he still won't stop barking. My stress level is up.

Glad I have therapy tomorrow. Just needed to vent a bit.

[VickiesPath]

My dog is a barker. There are times when I have to simply look at her and say out loud, "I love my dog, I love my dog, I love my dog, I love my dog," so I won't choke her!

[perpetuallysad]

BNLsMOM, is there time during the day that you have to yourself? Or do you have a neighbor or friend who might let the kids hang out at their house for a few hours tonight? Maybe you could make a casserole during the day today to take with the kids to "bribe" your friend/relative into helping a little. I'm sorry your husband isn't being more helpful. I go through wanting to scream at my family about 20 times a night. I find that by the end of the day my stress level is tremendous, even if nothing "stressful" has happened all day. I am supposed to take my xanax 3 times a day, but it makes me sleepy, so I usually wait until night time to take it. Anyway, I wish you lived close to me, I'd help with the kids. I've already got a house full as I've got my 3 nephews over for the weekend to spend time with my son. So a house with 4 crazy boys already, I could add some more kids and probably wouldn't notice.

[BNLsMOM]

Thank you. I feel a lot better now. I just needed to vent a bit last night. Once the kids went to bed, I had some time to rest. My husband came home and gave me a foot rub so he is off the hook.

I usually have some time during the late morning/early afternoon when the little one naps. I usually have time to be quiet with myself and go online for a bit. Yesterday, the dog was just particularly loud. Honestly, I think he was feeling my mood and trying to get me to play to cheer me up.

I talked to T today and we are going to watch my energy level closely and maybe call p-doc to get some Wellbutrin if I don't perk up soon.