[Moreta]

I think I am finally ready to go back to work! Whoo! Group therapy for 4 hours a day, every day, for the last 4 weeks, has done wonders. I really wish I would've been thrown in the hospital when all these problems actually began (7 yrs. ago) but the past is the past. I've learned so much by going. My favorite this I've learned was the technique of "fogging" which is were when someone asks you a question, you pretty much give them a vague answer back, like "I'll think about it." I have also come to the conclusion that my mother is a toxic person, so I've been slowly trying to un-connect with her. I've been using the fogging technique, as well as redirecting the conversation. I feel really good about it because for the past 25 years, I've been living up to everyone's standards except my own. I feel empowered knowing that the only thing I can control is my own emotions/reactions, and I don't need to worry about other people because they're responsible for their own emotions/actions. I have also come to accept that it is OK to be HAPPY!

Tomorrow is my first day not going to the classes, and I'm slightly worried about what I'm going to do. I have found as long as I'm doing something, there's no time to think about depressing/anxious thoughts. Any ideas about what I should do tomorrow?

The best quote from the program: "What other people think of you is NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!"

[phoenix47baby]

it sounds like you learned some really good coping techniques and way to process information. glad you went to the hospital program. Hang in there and welcome home.