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I wasn't sure where to post since I'm apparently ADD and BP. It's basically a long post about me. I felt I should share. I've been coming here a long time but have not said much about myself. Again tough it is a really long post.

So, rather than double post, please see this thread:
http://forums.psychcentral.com/showt...04#post1258304

Your post is good. I know it's hard to put those things out there sometimes, but if it's any consolation, I can relate to a ton of stuff you wrote about. A ton. Also, I just turned 47 and was only just diagnosed (BP II) in the last year. It's all so obvious now, looking back. I have been mentally beating myself up about it (without knowing what "it" was) for like 37 years(!)
So, I for one am glad that you posted that, even if it was hard. It is worthwhile. Besides, in talking with others who are dealt with these things, I've not felt so alone and I hope you find that too.
(Btw, holy cow on those elementary school incidents! I'm so sorry that those things happened to you, that was just plain cruelty.)

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Alas they were but 2 examples out of many. Elementary school kept me almost unbearably frustrated, angry, and afraid. I was eager to learn but I was too easily distracted from material that was too easy and boring; plus, I was continually humiliated and bullied by students and teachers alike.

There were 2 brothers who used to chase me home everyday because I was terrified to let them catch me. Oddly, they almost never did but once they split up to catch me and I cornered one and stood up to him. He backed down and they didn't chase me anymore. You'd think that would have taught me to stand up for myself, but inexplicably, I lost that fire immediately after and became a doormat again.

I can't believe I'm posting this. It sounds so much like an appeal for pity. Maybe it is, but I can no longer suppress the need to express this.