[BashfullOne]

I've been feeling what I though was happy for the last week, but I just realizled that I've been kind of numb all week - not happy happy, but not depressed - just stuck in the middle. What is that all about? I've never been numb before. I'm use to just feeling super depressed and wanting to end my life - but I don't think I have the strength to do that. I tried once... and of course failed like I fail everything else in my life. But I'm still just numb. Why can't I just feel normal - be normal... I didn't want this! I just want to be a happy person, I want to be albe to attend social functions but I can't even do that - I can't even attend Mass... I'm so worthless and useless as a human being...but I don't feel anything right now. l don't even care about myself - I don't put on makeup, do my hair, or dress nice. I look like a slob and I'm okay with that - I usually take pride in how I look - but I don't care right now. I don't leave the house as I'm agoraphobic. I'm ramblling....sorry about that. I'm just in a place I have not been in before. What does this mean? Not feeling, not caring about anything.
I must be on my way to crashing. Pain I'm use to - but I feel nothing.... nothing at all. Does anyone else feel this way? I'm tired of all of it - of the ups, and the crashes... I'm so very tired of feeling - so this in a way is nice - no pain, no nothing.... I'm an empty shell...

[freefree]

Are you taking medication for your condition?

[Anneinside]

I think you really need to contact your psychiatrist if you have one. Otherwise contact your regular doctor and get an appointment with a psychiatrist. It can take a while to get to see one.

[jennaorgana]

ugh i hate feeling numb.

[missmoonshine]

Feeling numb is bloody aweful you are not on your own with that one. You need to see your psych or Doc and tell them how you are feeling. I know that numb feeling for me is worse than anything cos I feel so dead and no one should have to feel that way. Hope things get better for you soon

[Fox]

numb apathy is something I always seem to be stuck feeling. Please contact your pdoc and get a med check and see if that helps balance you out. "Normal" shouldn't leave you apathetic. {hugs if okay}

[BashfullOne]

freefree.

I'm on meds but they seem to have just stopped working. I have a hard time finding a new med as I'm allergic to most of the meds and antibiotics on the market. I'm very sensative to all drugs. It's so frustrating....

[BashfullOne]

anneinside,

I have a p-doc and he was supposed to call me today - but he didn't.... He knows I have issues with rejection.... I will call again tomorrow as I am now having side effects with my meds.... I don't know what we'll do as I'm allergic to most meds.

[BashfullOne]

Foxy, thank you. I will call my p-doc and see what I can do. I cant go alone anywhere - and I don't have anyone to take me to see him. I have such a allergy to most meds it's a serious issue. I'm at my wits end as to what will happen next. Thank you for caring.

Hugs!

[1sickteacher]

I have become more numb since 225mg of effexor not hot or cold, just me and my mind. dont know if it is good or bad yet.

[grizmom]

Hi...I have problems with feeling numb sometimes; I keep a mood diary and I never know what to put down as my mood when I feel numb, I don't know if I'm depressed or what is going on. For me, the feeling usually passes within a few days so I guess I never really talked to my pdoc about it.

I am also allergic to some of the meds that are available, and I've had bad side effects from others, so it's always tricky when I need a med change. Luckily the meds I've been on for about a year now have been working fairly well, I am pretty close to baseline or just mild depression or mild hypomania most of the time.

The other thing I can identify with somewhat is having a hard time leaving my apartment; I don't have full-blown agoraphobia, but I have a difficult time being away from my apt. for more than a few hours, and I can only go out if I am with someone who can bring me home immediately if I start to feel anxious or overwhelmed (I don't have a car, can't afford it). Sometimes because of medical needs (usually dentist) I have to stay with my family overnight...they live an hour away and I cling tightly to my anti-anxiety meds while I'm there!

I hope things start to look up for you, sorry I tend to ramble a bit...I'm still looking for the off switch on my tongue

[mamaJenof5]

Originally Posted by BashfullOne

freefree.

I'm on meds but they seem to have just stopped working. I have a hard time finding a new med as I'm allergic to most of the meds and antibiotics on the market. I'm very sensative to all drugs. It's so frustrating....

What are you on if I may ask? I was feeling this way for about a year..If when I was manic (which usally makes me fantastic) I had the numb feeling and I just felt empty, nothing mattered to me and I have 5 kids and a wonderful husband so these feelings didn't help my family or my house. my life turned into a reck! all the while I was taking meds and still cycling. But my doc just changed my meds because I couldn't take it anymore something had to end. Started me on Lamictal and lowered my effexor, something seems to working bcause I feel good..but am I just going into a manic phase? I have had more energy and actually took back controll of my house. I guess if it is just mania I'm lovin it this time but ya know I don't feel that "crazyness" anyway rambling! I just wanted to tell you I feel your pain(numbness) and this med worked for me maybe it could for you. Just sucks meds work different for everyone.

[musikcrazy]

I know what that numb feeling is like. For me it makes everything seem ten times more difficult, but yet I don't care. It's a crazy cycle! Definitely keep trying to get in touch with your pdoc. Don't quit trying. There is a med out there that will work for you. You are in my thoughts.

[billieJ]

Bashfull, you are not alone in numbness. It's a relief in a way, but not good either. I would think it is just another symptom of depression. But, teacher, I'm on 325 mg of effexor, and I wonder if that contributes to my inability to feel emotion. Bashfull, you didn't fail to commit suicide - you succeeded in living. Going someplace we know nothing about cannot be an answer to depression. But I hear you, and I know you are not happy. Med review seems to be called for, and just making someone else smile can help, too! billieJ

[pondbc]

I can empathize with what you are saying. Often I find if you can take your mind off your thoughts, it can boost your mood and make you feel alive (no longer numb). It can just be a small thing, or a combination of small things. For me calling a friend (especially if I end up listening to their problems), favourite music, making an effort to look nice, getting outside, watching something funny and yes, definitely going to Mass is a big one for me. All of these can give my serotonin a boost. They don't all work all the time for me, and often I have to give myself a huge push. I do find that once I am starting to feel better, I can get myself on an upward spiral. Hope by the time you read this you are starting to feel better.

[BashfullOne]

1sickteacher - I've been on 225mg of effexor since summer - they added abilify in oct and that seemed to help some. I'll take this numb filling over being depressed anytime....I think...LOL
Be sure to tell you doc about it and see what he has to say. My doc just said to wait until Monday and then see how i feel.... oh k.....