[bridgie]

I try so hard to be the way I'm supposed to be. I take meds talk to a therapist yet I still wreck my own life by being bipolar. I say things and do things I don't normally do and it makes everyone upset and then they leave. I'm just better off without anyone at least I wldnt hurt anyone and then myself in the process.

[1963.Susan]

(((((((((((((((((bridgie)))))))))))))))))))))))))
i know how you feel, i feel the same way. sometimes i feel like it would be better if i were dead because then even my family wouldn't have to deal with me & the bipolar issues anymore.
i hope you don't feel that badly.
you're doing the right things - keep trying
susan

Originally Posted by bridgie

I try so hard to be the way I'm supposed to be. I take meds talk to a therapist yet I still wreck my own life by being bipolar. I say things and do things I don't normally do and it makes everyone upset and then they leave. I'm just better off without anyone at least I wldnt hurt anyone and then myself in the process.

Of course I have my 'I WANT OUTTA' stuff,
But there are some plus's to being bipolar =
We don't get bored eaily, we can multi-task, we can keep a subject or conversation going with limitless 'round-da-bouts' - Then finally catch up to what the subject was in the first place.

Yeah Bipolar Suck s- But I feel it's one of the worst chemical imbalances, but one of the most interesting.

It's a F'n roller coaster ride and we're on it, baby.

IF PEOPLE truly CARE about you they will take the time to research it with you or by themselfs. That's what a friend is - and they're rare.

When people are around maybe after awhile something sets you off: maybe too many people talking at once, musics too loud, LIKE just SHUT UP. Out attention span is quick.... Our moods can change real fast -
BUT HEY at least you made the effort.

Yeah people will think we're crazy - But Heck no to that, we are one to intelligent chemical imbalances, because we multi-task....
BUT of course then we over whelm our selfs.

ME F Bipolar, but hey I have it... and just rescreach, watch what I eat, no engery, caffeinne, blah blah

another thing I notice if I didn't eat.... forgot, too busy what ever I my body starts tripping, my minds spinning and I am not liking it.

So don't forget a little nibble.

write me Starlite

[bipolardisordermom]

(((Bridgie)))

[BNLsMOM]

I have been exploring bipolar as a gift lately and it is making me feel better about it. I said to my T the other day that maybe my brain is more turned on than other brains. Maybe it isn't a disease at all, but an evolution that is happening among humans and we are lucky enough to be some of the first ones to experience it.

I don't know if that helps at all, but it is something that is helping me understand that although I may not be able to control mood swings, that I can control how I think about them.

[Raemay18]

Originally Posted by bridgie

I try so hard to be the way I'm supposed to be. I take meds talk to a therapist yet I still wreck my own life by being bipolar. I say things and do things I don't normally do and it makes everyone upset and then they leave. I'm just better off without anyone at least I wldnt hurt anyone and then myself in the process.

Bridgie,

How old are you?
You sound very young just by how you express your feelings.
I know my moods may have caused losses in friendships. We all have are ups and downs its a mind battle constantly and down blame yourself just try harder not to make bad decessions next time ok.
No one is perfect stop being so hard on yourself I can see us Bipolars are more moodier and blue at times some more then others.
I am here if you want to chat ok take care.

Raemay18

[gone in 60 seconds]

I just need someone to tell me it will get better. I,ve been rapid cycling for a month now and see no end.

[Zoey522]

Originally Posted by BNLsMOM

I have been exploring bipolar as a gift lately and it is making me feel better about it. I said to my T the other day that maybe my brain is more turned on than other brains. Maybe it isn't a disease at all, but an evolution that is happening among humans and we are lucky enough to be some of the first ones to experience it.

I don't know if that helps at all, but it is something that is helping me understand that although I may not be able to control mood swings, that I can control how I think about them.

BNLsMOM: I told my doctor the same thing yesterday and he told me that is my acute manic phase talking. I don't know- I think I agree with you. Maybe we are able to think and hear/see on some higher level- remember how many creative geniuses are/were bipolar. Are you medicated?

[missmoonshine]

I agree with what others say re; bipolar
I am currently 'well medicated' yet I am so dead inside. I cant live like this much longer the meds are killing the me that I know. I am a shell of my former self. I am normally a very intuitive and intellectual person at the moment its taking all my energy just to 'think'
However when really un well I cant cope and need the meds I guess everyone is different and needs to be open and discuss their needs with their Doc. We are all different and I guess honesty is the key. Although I personally find that hard as I hate losing control

[venusss]

Originally Posted by Zoey522

BNLsMOM: I told my doctor the same thing yesterday and he told me that is my acute manic phase talking. I don't know- I think I agree with you. Maybe we are able to think and hear/see on some higher level- remember how many creative geniuses are/were bipolar. Are you medicated?

I agree as well. I am a very creative person and I see things other don't see... I don't mean like halucinations... just meanings for words and different links between things... My friends actually find me entertaiming... because they say some basic phrase and I will start getting into it (example: "I am just killing time" - "But you cannot kill time... time isn't living or is it? And if you killed time, what would happen? Would we cease to exist or would we exist outside of the time-space continuum?").