Hey everyone,

Some of you may know I'm currently staying in a hospital for treatment. So you may be wondering why I'm going here for advice instead of just asking the doctors. First reason is...my doc is out until Monday. Second is...I always like to get feedback from people who know and have been through what I'm going through.

I just want to know if anyone here can relate to this...I'm wondering if this is the beginning of mania, or if I'm overreacting:

It started a few hours ago, when it felt like I was almost floating. It felt like there were little rockets underneath my shoes, and I was almost levitating. My insides felt the same way. I developed feelings of fear, amazement, and annoyance all at once. I was overwhelmed, felt like I'd EXPLODE. I felt the need to keep walking around, movement...and usually I'm very sedentary.

Then I noticed I'd be distracted easily by outside things, which isn't common for me. I started feeling a bit paranoid, wondering about other people's intentions...started getting that black and white thinking...good and evil. And the worst was when I got a thought that I was BETTER than everyone. I usually have a very low self-esteem.

This has only happened for the last 3 hours, and I took some seroquel not too long ago to calm myself. It has worked a little. I still feel edgy though. It's just so weird, because I came in here for a depressive episode.

I've only had one manic episode, and it was bad. The paranoia, delusions, hallucinations. I'm just wondering if I should be concerned. At this point, I can self-talk when I get the feelings of paranoia, and debate about how I'm not being realistic. But that's how it started before. Do you think this could be the onset of mania, or just a bad day?

[shaggy dog]

Hi ohseedee, I read your post but I don't feel qualified enough to make any sort of diagnosis. It sounds like the seroquel took the edge off though which may indicate a med adjustment. I think you may be able to attribute your symptoms to the stress you must be under. I hope someone else in the forums can offer you more insight than I have. Hang in there till your dr comes back on Mon. shaggy

You need to talk to the nurses on duty about what you are feeling.

Thanks for the responses, both of you.
I have talked to a nurse on duty about how I'm feeling, he was the one who gave me the seroquel. The talking helped, for sure, but they can't really offer much insight. I just posted in hopes somebody might be able to relate to the feelings I'm having. Thanks again!

[Maxime]

There is name for the need to keep moving but I can't remember what it is. Some anti-depressants cause it. Good job on asking your nurse. Did he think it was med related?

I hope you are getting the help you need in the hospital .

[PufNStuf]

Could it be a mixed episode? Have you had those before? Almost all of mine are mixed.....

[grizmom]

Originally Posted by ohseedee

It started a few hours ago, when it felt like I was almost floating. It felt like there were little rockets underneath my shoes, and I was almost levitating. My insides felt the same way. I developed feelings of fear, amazement, and annoyance all at once. I was overwhelmed, felt like I'd EXPLODE. I felt the need to keep walking around, movement...and usually I'm very sedentary.

Then I noticed I'd be distracted easily by outside things, which isn't common for me. I started feeling a bit paranoid, wondering about other people's intentions...started getting that black and white thinking...good and evil. And the worst was when I got a thought that I was BETTER than everyone. I usually have a very low self-esteem.

I can relate to being easily distracted and feeling fidgety, not the rest of it though, sorry. I hope your doctor will be able to find the correct meds for you...take care!

[Dave255]

I also had only one manic episode that was very unpleasant.

One thing that helps me is if Im have thoughts that aren't good for me I take a deep breath and instantly focus on something else.