[Trippin2.0]

So I'm being admitted to a private psych hospital tomorrow. Need to change meds, and I guess the fact that I mentioned arguing outloud with atleast 3 other "me's" didn't exactly impress my pdoc. Told my mom it was just for a med change,but had to come clean to my sister about my dx b/c I needed to borrow some cash... Just want to hide in my bed, I didn't ask for any of this!

[sugahorse1]

You're doing the right thing and you know it.
Don't feel embarrassed and don't worry what other people think. You are taking responsibility for yourself and that is something you should be proud of.

Sugahorse is right - this admission will be a positive thing for you. They'll be able to try different meds and hopefully find the combo that works for you. I hope you'll keep us updated on how you're doing.

[Yoda]

Suggestion: take your own pillow. Hospital pillows are flat.

Hope they take good care of you. I will be thinking of you.

[owllover99]

A private hospital is better than a public one. You won't know you need the stay until after it's over. I'm praying it will be good for you. Try to keep an open mind that will help. On my first hospital stay the cops came to my house and told me either I go to the hosptial or they were gonna arrest me. I barely remember it. Don't take any Haldol.(Sorry, I'm an old pro at this.) We will be here when you get out because life goes on. Hugs, Owl.

[blueoctober]

Trippin2.0 I was forced to go to the hospital, so I didn't get the heads up about my stay. I remember being scared out of my mind, but it's one of the best things that happened to me for my mental health. I hope it goes well for you. Keep us posted.

[Shakti]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

You're doing the right thing and you know it.
Don't feel embarrassed and don't worry what other people think. You are taking responsibility for yourself and that is something you should be proud of.

I could not have said this better. And yeah--don't worry about anyone else right now. Just focus on you. This is a good move.... I think it's brave.

[sugahorse1]

Let us know how things are once you are there, or sms me and I'll post on yr behalf
(((HUGS)))

[Trippin2.0]

The nurse gave me a form 2 fill in,and asked some uncomfortable questions. Then I was passed on to a T for an eval, HEAVY, but it turned out alright. It's lunch time now, and I have no desire to eat. I thought I was lonely before, geez I really am now. Part of me wished I had stayed at home,and kept up the facade,but logical intelligent me knows the paint is crumbling... Guess I just have to man up and roll with the punches. Thanx guys for your support, it means alot!

[sugahorse1]

hang in there. try eat as much as possible.
I hope they can put you on new meds
If you feel too lonely, ask for a sleeping tab and sleep

[owllover99]

Yeah, at first you will feel quite alone and won't want to talk to the other people who are there. I hope they will have good groups you can go to to help you and get to know the others so you can learn who is there that is going through about the same thing as you and you will have a peer to talk to. Every hospital is different. So I don't know. Try to talk to a pdoc and maybe you can get something for your depression.
Keep us posted. We care. We been there.

[Shakti]

Yes, please do keep us posted.

[Trippin2.0]

Pdoc gave me something that knocked me out, I just barely managed to have supper. The people seem nice enough,but I feel so disconnected, still feel like going home,but I'm trying my best to stay put. Pdoc will let me know what's happening with the new meds tomorrow morning. Going back to sleep now...

(((((((Trippin2.0))))))) I'm glad you're hanging in there, you are a strong person.

[Schwandy]

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

So I'm being admitted to a private psych hospital tomorrow. Need to change meds, and I guess the fact that I mentioned arguing outloud with atleast 3 other "me's" didn't exactly impress my pdoc. Told my mom it was just for a med change,but had to come clean to my sister about my dx b/c I needed to borrow some cash... Just want to hide in my bed, I didn't ask for any of this!

Going to the hospital is the hardest thing I ever did. But I am a better person for it. You will do great and things will get a little easier for you. Good luck!

[shadow11]

glad to hear your taking a positive step. the hopital is a good place to be to get the right combo of meds and to interact with other people who have similar problems. try to just relax and get the rest you need. i've always come out of the hospital with better coping skills and better focus. the only caution i have is dont get caught up in other peoples dramas, but there is a lot to learn from others besides staff. good luck. i'll be thinking about you.

[sugahorse1]

All the best and I hope today is a better day!

[Trippin2.0]

Pdoc agreed that outpatient is a better option as admission has increased my anxiety. (worrying about bills,debit orders and the fact that med/aid won't cover entire bill...) he's increased my Tegetrol dosage from 200mg to 400mg daily and added Risperidone (antipsychotic) to my cocktail. I'm still taking 20mg Lorien daily. Thanks for your support guys,couldn't have made it through last night without you,but this is best for me...

[sugahorse1]

Are you now considering outpatient? Hang in there and just try sleep. You'll settle into the swing of things and the anxiety will decrease.
Sure beats me having to sit at work behind my computer with systems that don't work and bashing the keyboard - too scared to bash the screen incase that smashes to pieces.
Gosh, am I aggressive and irritable today or what?!?!

[Trippin2.0]

It's okay to get aggressive and irritable suga, we've all been there. Well atleast I answered your previous question. I experience depression with psychosis, except I didn't know what it was until recently... Hooray for antipsychotics, maybe I'll be okay now...

[blueoctober]

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

Pdoc agreed that outpatient is a better option as admission has increased my anxiety. (worrying about bills,debit orders and the fact that med/aid won't cover entire bill...) he's increased my Tegetrol dosage from 200mg to 400mg daily and added Risperidone (antipsychotic) to my cocktail. I'm still taking 20mg Lorien daily. Thanks for your support guys,couldn't have made it through last night without you,but this is best for me...

I hope outpatient goes well for you Trippin2.0. Keep us posted.

Suga sorry that you are experiencing that at work and I agree don't bash the monitor! I have dropped quite a few "f" bombs at work over our database.....heck so have my co-workers and they aren't diagnosed!

[sugahorse1]

Lol@ Blue!

Trippin - how are things going? Please give us an update.

Btw - the monitor is yet again @ risk!! I'm just too scared to smach my wrist to pieces by putitng it through the screen, so I need to find another implement, other than my wrist, to smash the screen with!!
New systems being implemented @ month-end is NOT a good idea. We are going to manage to "break" our whole, international company tooday - whoop whoop!!

[Trippin2.0]

Maybe sabotage is what they have in mind??

I'm feeling fine, just a bit fragile, guess that's not unheard of.

Guess what? My mom and sister want me to stop my meds Are they crazy? wish I could take pictures of what goes on inside my head so they will STOP DISMISSING IT!

Don't want to think about them, I have a feeling they're turning into triggers Stupid Biatches

[sugahorse1]

Are you still in hospital, or at home, or at work?
What's your pdoc's plan for you?

Ignore the family and just put yourself first!

[Trippin2.0]

I couldn't stand being out of action, it was best for me to return to work strange I know. I don't even understand yet, but that was the right decision.

Pdoc has changed my cocktail from 200mg Tegretol + 20mg Lorien daily to 400mg Tegretol + 20 mg Lorien + 1mg Risperdal daily. He supported my decision to leave the hospital, which was encouraging. I can do outpatient if it suits me, but I'm fine, I'm not the mess I was last week, and will call him if I need extra attention.
He said to just show up if the meds are screwy, or if my head is, so that's good. I have an appt next week, so we'll discuss a plan then. He did however mention that he thinks I should join a support group, maybe I will...