[allme]

Ok so I feel WONDERFUL... confident and beautiful... full of energy, I have my diary full of plans and activities for the next month which I planned all in just one day! Will I end up doing all these things? Well that depends on how long this phase lasts for. I was not even aware I was entering a manic stage but my husband sat me down today and pointed out the evidence... I was sad when it hit me. I just thought I was happy! But no... I have been draining our bank account, spending money that we dont have.. but felt justfied for spending the money. I always do it. I have been flirting with any man that pays me the slightest attention and dressing to provoke.

I feel sssso elated... wonderful... confident... energetic.. creative... simply superb and I love me so much right now. I know I have to see doc about it so we can alter my meds but I dont want to I love feeling like this. My husband hates it as he told me that I behave like a ***** towards him and dont care for his feelings... I cant see that though I just see my confidence is up and not so reliant on him. Secondary gains comes to mind? Maybe?

I dont know.... I am thinking of not saying nothing to doc so I can keep this feeling. I have also enrolled for a counselling course...can ppl with BP do these kinds of things? I wonder.... but I am worried that I will not want to do it once I go back to normal or depressed... wherever the bus takes me.

Thanks for listening )

[onlymedid]

Gosh that sounds like when I get manic. I don't want to tell the doc either, but from experience, when I don't say anything the depression that hits is so hard...worse than it would have been, had I gotten the mood controlled before hand.
I know, the highs are so awesome. You never want them to go away.
I took a job change once when manic and completely regretted it when I came back down from the high. I think you might want to wait on that until you come down a bit, just so you are sure this is something you really want to do.

[sugahorse1]

Whoop whoop!
I'm coming to your side of the world, so you are not alone.

From being in bed by 8PM and sleeping 11 hours, I started bouncing off walls on Friday evening (The damn treadmill is broken; I felt that was the only way I was going to be able to burn off any energy) Fianlly calmed down enough round 11PM ot take my meds and climb into bed (And even then, it was more the logic kicking in, telling me i needed to get some sleep!).
All of last week I have felt a bit numb, not depressed, but very snappy. And I was taking everything very personal.
Saturday I went to races, had a few drinks (Gee, I cannot drink on these new meds - 5 drinks over a 5 hour period and i was ready to throw up??) then at 11PM was angling to go out to a club - wtf? I have not gone out in a year, I usually just let my boyfriend go alone as I just don't have the energy.
Got to sleep at 12PM (I do take a med which is a bit of a sleeping aid, so this helps) and then slept til 9:30.
Sunday I took it quite easy. Had an arguement with my bf, which was actually a bit over the top - I did over-react - and was feeling sorry for myself.
Watched some of the World Cup soccer and then played computer games till midnight. Could not fall asleep even with my tabs until prob 12:30PM. Up just before 7AM this morning (Thanks to my alarm going off lol!) Driving to work I heard a great tune on the radio, so turned my music up loud enough to nearly blast my speakers. I was driving like a hooligan, but the faster, the better! LOL!

Now my iPod is on the beatier music and I'm cool. Even now I feel like I'm bouncing out of my skin. Full of energy - unfortunately not really enough concentration to be ultra productive, but whatever.

Eek!

Whoop whoop!

[Skully]

Wow, you sure get busy when you get manic! I would let your pdoc know of the mania even if you don't want to. I know I would prefer to be manic any day every day because I get so much done and feel so good. But I also know it is not good for me!

[allme]

nobody seems to care about anything I have to say. :0(

[FeelingHopeful]

All me I care . Im glad your sharing your story on here. Im aiways listening. Hugs!

[sanityseeker]

Who allme... who doesn't care? Talk away. Did you see you doc? What's up or down?

[Amandas256]

We are listening to you All of Me! I know you don't want to but, you really need to call your pdoc and let them know that you're manic. I love the feeling too but it's not worth the risk of doing something that you might regret later. Hang in there! Sending you lots of hugs!

[Anneinside]

Allme, we are listening to you but perhaps what you were looking for was a confirmation that you are doing is the right thing. From what others have told you, in order to be stable, you will need to tell your pdoc and be willing to have medication that will move you away from mania.

[sugahorse1]

just for a bit of inspiration - you mentioned you enrolled in a counselling course. I'm hoping to attend an equine assisted psychotherapy course shortly, which will start me on a path of hopefully becoming a facilitator. Naturally I would work alongside a T, but I am just so excited about this.
Yup, the above was probably driven by my own mania, but I really think this is ME! that helping others and working with horses is what I NEED to do, what makes me tick and carry on, what fulfils me. Sure hope this passion is still around when the mania is gone

This was my first noticable mania (Well, now that I'm armed with all this knowledge, it's much easier to spot) and I didn't call my pdoc. But I think the crash is coming and I don't like it.
In hindsight I'd recommend asking for help. Rather stable than the crash.
We're here for you

[Formerlybrilliant]

All Me, like many here, I too enjoy the elation that comes with mania. Unfortunately for many the dark side of mania eventually leads to all manner of trouble if it is unchecked. Most assuredly check in with your p-doc and inform of your status. The main thing is to get back in control and stable. Your desires to enroll in the counseling course may fade as mania fades but that doesn't mean you should let that get in the way of pursuing this goal. Beside being stable as opposed to manic should give you the upper hand in completing and succeeding in this course. I guess what I'm trying to say is that you shouldn't let the thought of losing the mania impede you from pursuing this interesting goal you have set for yourself. I wish you stability, peace, and success.

[allme]

Thank you

I was feeling a little sorry for myself last night so I guess I was crying out for a bit of attention

Thanks for all the advice but I think I have levelled out somewhat. The meds I am on seem to be doing their job to some degree. i didn't get as manic as I usually would and it didn't last too long either

I still feel somewhat... "happy" lol but not in any means a threat to my mental stability.

Thanks again and thanks for understanding my little "nobody loves me" tantrum lol

[sugahorse1]

Glad you're back!

[allme]

Thank you!