Hey everyone,

Is it possible for me to feel depressed, suicidal, unmotivated...and yet also some restlessness, paranoia, and racing thoughts at the same time? It's really frustrating because I'll be depressed and wanting to be in bed, but I'll get up and decide to walk around or exercise on the bike instead. Also, I'm hearing voices, one time it said "harm yourself"...which really threw me off.

Has anyone experienced this?

[DancingAlone]

Originally Posted by melissa.recovering

Hey everyone,

Is it possible for me to feel depressed, suicidal, unmotivated...and yet also some restlessness, paranoia, and racing thoughts at the same time?

Hi Melissa,
I don't hear any voices but I have had many episodes that are called either
1) rapid cycling, where you go down real quick and up real quick, even as quick as in 5 minutes. Mine was triggered by an antidepressant they gave me. It was AWFUL. I still rapid cycle, but about a week or two of each, which is sitll fast, but I try to live with it with medications. That is they way my bipolar disorder is mostly.
2) mixed states, where you can fell both at the same time! that is awful too. I feel like I'm on a merrygoround and I want off!

Are you on medications? Do you see a therapist? I recommend this highly if you don't yet. I wish you well my friend. Take care.

[Amandas256]

It sounds like rapid cycling. I've never done it but, that's how it goes. I hope all is well!

[BlackPup]

sometimes i feel like my brain is going to explode, it goes in all directions... up, down, i'm tired, i can't sleep, can't think, can't stop thinking....

used to get the thoughts and voices often but now just occaisionally get crazy thoughts popping in...

they are weird, they are not quite my thoughts but still in my head, and they more they are there the more "real" they become...

[CDoll]

Well I just posted but I read this and thought well, I think the nex question answered mine too! I am doing the same thing minus any voices. But they have me taking 2 antidepressants and just added depakote. I need advice I feel like I am rapid cycling more the like the every week to hours even. It seems like the mixed type does that meen type one and that is harder to treat right? Should I see a psych right away and start getting off antidepressants? I have been on one or another of them for @ 12 years now! My depressions are severe and scary I am afraid to not be taking an antidpressant!

[unico]

It reminds me of my mixed episodes -- I had all the energy and grandiosity of mania combined with a sad and suicidal mood. I don't rapid cycle, for the record, but I've had many mixed episodes.

[blueoctober]

I'm sorry you are going through that melissa.recovering. Prior to being diagnosed and on anti-d's alone I went into a mixed episode and the symptoms you are describing is what I experienced. Have you contacted your P-doc?

[sugahorse1]

I'm going to guess mixed episode... I'm a little there myself. I guess it's the stress and fast-paced environment of my job, causing my mind to race and me having to have energy. Then the stress and the realisation that i just cannot get it right - that triggers the depression in me.
You need to look at circumstances in your environment and life, and see if any of them could be triggering you, and consequently be removed.
I really feel for you - it is terribly exhausting and painful

Originally Posted by DancingAlone

Hi Melissa,
I don't hear any voices but I have had many episodes that are called either
1) rapid cycling, where you go down real quick and up real quick, even as quick as in 5 minutes. Mine was triggered by an antidepressant they gave me. It was AWFUL. I still rapid cycle, but about a week or two of each, which is sitll fast, but I try to live with it with medications. That is they way my bipolar disorder is mostly.
2) mixed states, where you can fell both at the same time! that is awful too. I feel like I'm on a merrygoround and I want off!

Are you on medications? Do you see a therapist? I recommend this highly if you don't yet. I wish you well my friend. Take care.

Thanks for your reply.

I am currently on medications - 500mg seroquel XR, 800mg tegretol, and 10mg abilify. I don't have a therapist, however...but I am an inpatient in a hospital at the moment, so I do have a psychiatrist.

I am even taking extra medications, I'm allowed 25mg of seroquel IR every 8 hours...so I'm trying to take that as often as possible. My usual 500mg of the XR stuff just isn't cutting it right now.

Thank you everyone for your replies. I will express my concern to my psych today and see what happens.

[thinker22]

I agree with some of the others. It sounds like a mixed episode to me. I had one where I was angry and suicidal, but I had tons of energy and couldn't sleep. I drove from the west coast to the east coast and back in 10 days, with staying at friends' places twice, but still not really sleeping. It could just be rapid cycling, but it seems like a dysphoric mania in my experience. I hope your p-doc has some answers for you. Seems like you need a meds adjustment.

[Anneinside]

Originally Posted by melissa.recovering

ut I am an inpatient in a hospital at the moment, so I do have a psychiatrist.

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Boy am I surprised that you can post and access the internet while in the hospital. The hospital I have gone to didn't allow computers or even phones!