[RapidFlyer]

I went into my Pdoc's office thinking I was finally stable and got hit with "your Manic and way off the charts". I was Not happy to hear the next comments, which were questions to verify her dx. I unfortunately passed the "test" with flying colors.

I was even unhappier when I told her I did not want to do anything about it and my Pdoc not only didn't agree, she upped my meds again. She also told me that if this combo doesn't work we are doing something completely different next.

So, now I am Royally P'd and I am heavily sedated at the same time. How is that for a combo. This whole thing has me feeling like I am at the end of a tunnel and the light I see is a moving train coming straight at me.

I need some feed back.

Have others walked in thinking everything was a okay than whammo it wasn't.

This med change will mess me up for at least 3 days.

Right now I need support and feedback and whatever I can get. Thnx in advance.

[Beebizzy]

Yes. I've gone in there and announced to the pdoc that this is my 'normal self' and thanked him profusely for having 'cured' me, and told him how great I'm doing. To have him say 'you need valium and an anti-psychotic'.

I found it very very confusing at the time and it knocked me for 6 I can tell you. So I absolutely know how you feel, RapidFlyer. Now I look back and see the pdoc was right and it's all a bit cringey.

That's the thing - the difficult thing to accept, I guess - sometimes the pdocs are in a better position than we are to know what's a bit off (off the charts, you say she gave you - eek) and we need to rely on them and just go with it. I totally understand how disappointing it is, and to have yet another med adjustment, and have to wait to see the effects of it - you sort of feel like you will never get to find out what 'normal' is for you. The ground is taken from under your feet somewhat. I've thought I was 'fine' so many times.

It's worth persisting though because that's precisely your pdoc's area of expertise and why you see her (I'm not saying pdocs can never be wrong, but it's probably worth giving her the benefit of the doubt).

Good luck RapidFlyer, I hope you adapt soon to the meds.

BB

[theGirlNextDorm]

That's a little how I felt today, RapidFlyer. I've been doing very well for a while now, but today my mom was like, "Your dad and I want to talk to your psychiatrist." Aargh. (However, where my case differs from yours is that my mom just wants to talk about when I move back into the dormitory this coming semester. Stil, I hate when my parents talk to my p-doc, because my mom always ends saying hurtful things and my dad is evasive, as usual.
I'm sorry to hear that you had a med increase. I hope that will do the trick. It's true that it can be confusing, having bipolar and then getting manic symptoms, because for me at least, mania feels great. It feels like the opposite of being sick.