[lockbox]

I just want to start by saying that I have not been diagnosed with anything yet. I think I might be bipolar or something.

Yesterday I went from sobbing on the floor wanting to disappear forever. I just keep feeling like I have ruined everyones life, and I can't get away from myself. I am trapped in my own mind.

I always feel paralyzed. Sometimes I feel numb and lethargic, and other times the thoughts in my head are coming so fast that I can't move either!

Later in the day I had a detailed fantasy about taking an ax and destroying everything I own. I even mimicked the motion with an invisible ax!

I never rage outwardly, and this was the first time I have ever went through something like this. I was depressed and lethargic the rest of the day, and I woke up today feeling anxious.

any thoughts, or relating of any kind would be appreciated.

[PT52]

Go see your GP or a psychiatrist and tell them everything you've said here. If you feel like you're in danger of hurting yourself or someone else, go to the emergency room.
Sending peaceful vibes your way...

[lockbox]

Thank you PT52 and I want to apologize because this post showed up after the one I left before.

I actually posted this first so I have the same question up twice... kind of. Thank you for your kind words and peaceful vibes. I am pulling it together so I can hid today from my fiance who I have to drive 2 hours to pick up from the airport.

[BlackPup]

There are lots of things that can look the same on the surface. Please talk to your doctor about seeing a pdoc to get an accurate diagnosis so that you can get the right treatment.