[BNLsMOM]

So I walked to my T appointment today and I realized that without the protection of my car around me, that anyone could swipe me into the bushes and do whatever they wanted with me. I saw some people on the path along the pond on the way to the office that I needed to avoid because I couldn't bear to pass them and have their eyes on my back. I wanted to see every move they made. It didn't help that there is a new sighn put up warning people that there is no security provided and that the path is used at one's own risk. At least now I know there aren't camera's on the loght posts on the path which I used to think.

I didn't talk about this with T because I didn't really notice it until I was walking home.

I guess I should see how I feel in the next couple of days. I hate that unsafe feeling.

[Tsunamisurfer]

Originally Posted by BNLsMOM

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I guess I should see how I feel in the next couple of days. I hate that unsafe feeling.

warm, friendly community hug for (((((BNLsMOM)))))

[disguise123]

hope it passes, if not do tell ur t.
Remember that u are safe

[Ryask]

man i know that feeling...i just got new curtains for my living room, much thinner then my old ones....my sister has said something like "at least ones are see through so you will get some sun" .....man...just the words..and now i am so scared people are watching me through the front room windows....i was fine..you know...till i realized...

[BNLsMOM]

I went into the shower after my husband left with my son to take care of some things for my inlaws. When I came out and I was making my lunch, I heard sirens and I thought that my husband had called 911 on me because he called while I was in the shower and didn't answer the phone. I checked the caller ID and there is no call from him. So far no police have busted into my house, so I guess it wasn't for me.

I am also rather angry that my husband is going to my inlaws house to help with the vacuuming (MIL had surgery not long ago and can't do housework, and FIL tore his bicep) because our house is falling apart and needs some attention.

I am also suspicious of my husband about something that happened this morning. I think he was looking at an inappropriate movie (possibly anime porn because he said it was a cartoon) in front of our youngest son and I think he was "taking care of himself" if you catch what I mean. I asked him what he was doing and he said he was scratching an itch. I am not that stupid... He swears he wasn't doing anything inappropriate, but for some reason I don't believe him and he didn't offer to show me the movie to prove it either.

[disguise123]

hmmm, do you suspect your husband because of past happenings? has there been a history of watching/using pornography?
has he done these inappropriate things
In the past?
Or would this be a out of character action?
Can you find the movie.
I understand your frustration over the house work.
But i suppose in its own way its nice that he helps your in laws out.
But not helpful to you!
As for the police sirens, has your husband ever called them before?
Or is anxiety getting the better of you?
My anxiety does this to me.
I hope things work out for you.
Xxx

[BNLsMOM]

It's all anxiety. It's all paranoia. Nothing I think has any basis in reality. I have suspected him of doing that stuff before, but again I had no proof. He has never called the police on me.

[disguise123]

ah you poor love.
Are you getting any assistance at the moment?

[BNLsMOM]

Originally Posted by rapidcycla

ah you poor love.
Are you getting any assistance at the moment?

From my T.