respect.

HOW can i disrespect you if i dont even know what it fricken means? How can i respect someone if i dont know what it means or never have gotten it. No one respects me. Im still treated like im 5. Maybe thats it i am 5. im not 18 im 5. they talk to me like im 5 look at me like im 5 and treat me like im 5. So now everyone is mad at me. My gma says i disrepect her and thanks for that. My cuz says im crabby. Well DUH im crabby every first of the month. There must be something more wrong with me. Who knows maybe i was right and i was mentally retarded. I definently feel retarded. Im sick of this.

I guess i got more to learn about being normal and functioning in this world as a normal person. Than a retard.

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Sorry for this post. just needed to vent my retarded little self out.

now if u excuse me im gonna go.

they dont have control over me but i do and i feel better if i cut myself now. They dont matter now, its just i matter and i need to cut out more of this stupid anger in me.

sorry

blackdragon, it's really hard when you feel as if your family doesn't give you the respect you want. and especially if they are treating you as a child. what causes them to say this to you? is it specific behavior? is it anything you can change? let us know. xoxoxo pat

oh i wanted to help and get an estimate about a car repair job on the fan from my moms friend who is a mechanic. i forgot speaking her name is taboo. well i kept saying i am sorry and my gma kept on going about how we dont want them to know and blah blah blah. i just wanted her to stop so i said im sorry again. well she didnt and i guess i got mad.. i did apologize..

Ugh. I know how you feel. It's hard when every move you make sees to be a wrong turn.

yeah, well i dont give any more help to them. if they want help they can ask. Last time i try to help. Thanks for the support