[FNCrazy]

Bipolar's love deeper and hurt harder.

Since I only go "up" to hypo, I don't get some of the better highs, some of the perks of an otherwise brutal disorder.

So, I was trying to think about some of the benefits, and I decided that Bipolar's love deeper. I think it can be true...Anyways, unfortunately being who I am, my brain immediately popped to "and hurt harder." Which I also think is true.

Now, if this makes no sense, forgive me, I haven't slept in a while!

[Evil Schnoodle]

I agree. I love deeper (I think) and often feel emotions deeper than many people. I'm a musician, and when I'm singing and playing guitar I feel completely encapsulated by my emotions - the essence of love. Of course, I can also be self-centered, masking my emotions, not sure if I love you or dislike you today, and then tomorrow everything is back to "normal". I've had those highs only a few times and they felt good, but there was a part of me that thought "this isn't real...I shouldn't be this happy for no apparent reason". But is did feel good....

[FeelingHopeful]

Thank you guys for explaining what its like I think im in Love with someone with Bd

[FeelingHopeful]

But im not Giving up on him or leaving him !!

[blueoctober]

Yes definitely. I experience emotions much deeper than the average person. It can be a blessing or a curse.

[Topher]

I know this much, it takes a deeper love by a bipolar's partner to endure the roller coaster that they must ride together.

[SpiritRunner]

Originally Posted by blueoctober

Yes definitely. I experience emotions much deeper than the average person. It can be a blessing or a curse.

I agree with this and could say, well, I will say the same! (and add borderline in there, and it makes the mix more intense and volatile-feeling at times, too!) Feels like a roller coaster full of stomach churning, gut clenching, heart in the throat (or toes) twists, turns, upside down curves sometimes.....days when the track is straight and unsurprising and uncomplicated are few for me.

[sugahorse1]

Topher- your comment hit hard, and it makes me appreciate my partner even more, and question his love for me even less- thank you!

I feel very strongly- whatever emotion it may be. And I battle to let go of emotions too. When I do 'let go', it comes totally out og the blue, and usually comes back as quickly

[Topher]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

Topher- your comment hit hard, and it makes me appreciate my partner even more, and question his love for me even less- thank you!

I feel very strongly- whatever emotion it may be. And I battle to let go of emotions too. When I do 'let go', it comes totally out og the blue, and usually comes back as quickly

My first marriage was a casualty of my BPI. It is probably the greatest failure of my life that I was separated from my children until they both chose to live with me during their high school years. I got control of my illness with lithium, but the damage was done. After repeated hospitalizations she feel out of love with me and into love with someone else.

Fortunate for me my second marriage has been wonderful, even when I had a relapse 2 years ago when my mother died. That's the basis of my comment. I hope we all find someone to share our lives with - someone who can stick with us even if we get sick.

[Confusedinomicon]

I have the same problems, but I have other issues on top of BP! My boyfriend has worked with me and made me feel loved throughout the struggle of maintaining the illness. I have good friends too, but I'm scared to even tell them enough so they can understand! (Not as related, but I go through love/hate phases with friends so I thought it was worth mentioning) XD