[palemoss]

i miss the optimism i had while manic last year (July-mid Dec 2010).

I thought, "man my next semester will be amazing! he will want to date me, so and so will take me out, i'll do this, i'll do that" blah.blah.blah

flash-forward now: i'm normal and worried and anxious about going back to school. what if i make no new friends? i had to take a serious break from life at the end of last year bc of my mania and the friends who have left around, i just don't know if they will want to still see me next semester...

was anyone else extremely optimistic and felt like nothing could ruin them during their mania?

oh yeah...everything is going my way....going to be GREAT....Life is WONDERFUL....
I definitely miss that!

Sometimes my mania is great and extremely optimistic, other times it's just more agitated and too fast to have any real thoughts about anything. I wish I could just have the optimistic view all the time.

[Nahla66]

God yes!!!....at the start of my last manic episode I naturally felt I could run the world....I got myself a really great job, house, boyfriend and for a while seemed to be pretty perfect-I loved the way I looked and saw no problems at all. Then the agitation began...no one was keeping up with me....."why is everyone else so slow/stupid?"...3months later I was hallucinating and recieving messages from religous statues. Lithium has quashed all my mania it's like a dam keeping the water at bay....I've been through drug addiction and nothing can compare to those first few weeks of mania....still would rather just be "consistent"

[Direction]

I agree with Anika...

[palemoss]

i'm manic now, but very minimal/moderate - or maybe i am just normal and happy? hard to say.

BUT LAST YEAR. Good God.
the optimism was so real - i had no shame and was just up for anything without ever thinking what the consequences could be.

Today, while I feel a bit manic I have more insight and foresight. I guess this is a good thing. Episodes are different.