[Forgive77]

I was so depressed for 2 days as if someone had died. And...I was throwing up to boot. As soon as my husband and two of my daughters came home...I was fine. What am I going to do about this? Every time they go I can't lose it like this. What about when they have to travel, and go to college etc.? It's the summer...they have to do things. This can't happen every time, and why didn't I know what it was I was going threw?

[ScooterBug]

Hey Forgive ... I know what you mean... sometimes I have all of these depressed feelings when I'm alone and just having someone by my side makes it melt away. I know you want to be able to cope with this on your own, but getting help from someone is always the smartest thing to do because no matter how strong someone might be they will always need someone in their life.

I suggest you find a way to open up to at least your husband and say as much as you feel comfortable sharing with him.

I myself am going through a "down" moment where I feel like everyone and everything around me is falling apart. I'm 2 days past due my due date and I want this lil boy out of me already!! I'm sure that's a huge factor on how I feel, but it's not healthy to say the least. Luckily I have my sister here visiting from CT and she has a degree in psychology so she understands me a lil more than most.

In either case, I hope you find a way to open up and cope during this "down" ... Just remember that the "good" bart of being Bipolar is that the chances of your "down" turning into an "up" just shortly after are much much higher!! *hugs*

[wing]

Forgive, I think you are in the process of recognizing your triggers...family being gone, maybe loneliness. Now you need to attack the triggers with a plan to deal with them. Talk with your doc for an as needed anti-anxiety med. Maybe your therapist can help you determine why being alone is a big trigger for you, and help you find ways to become more used to alone time.

Awww...
Sorry you are having these feelings. It's good that you are recognizing them and want to change them.

Sometimes it's a matter of keeping your mind occupied and doing things to keep yourself healthy when you feel those things coming on.
i've been reading a lot, art projects, getting out of the house...when I sit around, it's very bad for me.

Talk with your doc for an as needed anti-anxiety med. Maybe your therapist can help you determine why being alone is a big trigger for you, and help you find ways to become more used to alone time.

This is a very good idea. If you aren't used to being alone, it can be very overwhelming.

[Forgive77]

I'm fine today now that everyone is back. I think we have moved so much and he has gone out of town so much I just can't take it anymore. I have no thoughts obsessive, bad or otherwise. I just got depressed and started throwing up. That's why I didn't know what was going on. That's what kinda bothered me about it....I didn't know what was wrong. It felt like random depression and throwing up. No worries, guilt, or anger. Well I started getting angry that I was depressed, and worried I was going to stay like that, and wondered how long. That's more what I was thinking about.

But agree now...it was being lonely.

[Forgive77]

Oh...I forgot to say...I tell my husband everything. He figured it out before I did. I thought I was sick. LOL