[whoami??]

As some may know I started a whole new med regime. One of them being Wellbutrin which can be know to worsen mania and bipolar w/o a decent mood stabilizer on board. My mood stabilizer is Topamax.
WELLLLL, last night I went into full manic mode like nothing I've ever seen before and worst of all I actually got so tired of being depressed and feeling "numb" that the the THOUGHT crossed my mind to start cutting just to feel something, even if it was pain.I wasn't suicidal and Ive never been a self harmer so this was very out of the ordinary for me which is why I think it's med related. Well, I journaled, I cried, I meditated on it and still...... emptyness, choas in my brain. There were no sounds in my bedroom but I just wanted silence that I couldn't get as I'm sure some of you can understand what I mean by that. So, I took it upon myself and spoke very openly and honestly with my husband about what my head was saying/thinking. Soooo here's the question:

I see a new Psych this AM since I was D/C from hospital and of course I heed him to know how I felt last night and what's been going on.
DO you think if I tell him the truth about last night that I willl get Baker acted? My husband says I should say something like "the meds are working and they make feel funny" I laughed at him because I told him that in MY experience when you say that the Dr just UPS the dose which I obviously do not need.

What would you do?????

[zbmom]

I would tell your dr exactly what you experienced so they can figure out if you need a different combo or a dose adjustment. If you don't fully report your symptoms and side effects they can't help you. Everyone's chemistry is a little different. And I don't know what baker acted is but it's important that you are safe.

[Forgive77]

I agree. Tell exactly what happened.

[nycgurl]

be honest...always. he won't baker act you.

[astone131]

Be honest. Sometimes I think if I tell them everything I am thinking that they will hospitilzie me and I dont want that to happen.

[whoami??]

Thanks everyone sooooo much. I told him EVERYTHING that went through my head last night, even brought my journal although he didnt read it. He reassured me and told me that based on what he heard that I was not having a manic episode but rather a SEVERE anxiety attack. Soooo. he said I have his permission to take an extra klonopin if that ever happens again! He also laughed at my Topamax dose, said I might as well be taking a tictac LOL.. He up'd my seroquel from 100 to 300 and d/c'd my topamax and I see him next week. Right now, I feel good. Heading to therapy now then a few other places. AGAIN THANKS!!!!!!!!