[BNLsMOM]

It got me again. I was ready to change my life and redesign how my family eats, I got all excited, baked healthy cookies that no one wanted but me. I was allover the internet reading about whole foods diets... At the same time I was writing alot. I am working on a book and I was putting away pages and pages. I just thought I was feeling good. Maybe I was, but I can feel familiar depression coming in to replace the wave of euphoria I was riding.

I feel depressed and overwhelmed tonight. My husband got turned down for a good job and we need him to find permanent work as his contract work could end any time. He had an interview today at the place he is contracting at so there is a chance there. That's all he has in the works. His contracting job doesn't bring in enough money so we are going to be dipping into our savings which we worked hard to accrue.

I am so angry at his old job for letting him go. I think it was in direct response to my having to be in the hospital and my husband had to juggle kids and work. Three weeks after I left the hospital he was let go.

We also have to bring one of our dogs back to the shelter. She is having a bad life at our house because we can't train her and she spends a lot of her time locked in her house (Cage). It is not fair to her to live that way. I want her to have a family where she can run around get trained, and have owners who can pay good attention to her. She is so high energy and I am overwhelmed by her. I feel guilty about giving her back but it is for the best.

So tonight I am feeling a little depressed and a lot angry. Again, I thought I was doing so well. Maybe it will come back.

[zbmom]

I'm sorry you're having such a rough day, hugs