[mel80]

I was wondering if anyone out there just ups and takes off when they are manic or super low ? I find that I tend to just take off and not tell anyone.My thinking when I'm doing this is not exactly up to scratch I'm like get yourself together which never happens I usually get found way up the island in quite a state usually by the authorities.I'm just curious if others have similar issues like that thank you

[Ryask]

i've picked up and left everything i owned in an apartment and went on a trip and never came back..

[mel80]

Originally Posted by Ryask

i've picked up and left everything i owned in an apartment and went on a trip and never came back..

Were you in a good frame or did you just allow the impulses to take over ?Would be interesting to know Most often for me it's a form of escapisim from whats really going on in my head at the time

[unaluna]

That almost sounds like a dissociative fugue. Have you talked to T about this?

[astone131]

I took off once leaving everything behind and went to Illinois with some guy for a few weeks

I used to do that all the time. I never had access to a vehicle, so it was just a place within a couple miles' walking distance. There was a park I'd go to, an old abandoned building, go to the mall & people watch, or sometimes just go to the store to buy a drink & go back. Now that I'm living in my new place, I don't so much need to escape outside (& it would be kind of dangerous to), but I really do enjoy just getting up & leaving with no prior warning or destination. : ]

[mel80]

Originally Posted by hankster

That almost sounds like a dissociative fugue. Have you talked to T about this?

Only once just recently did a counciller I was seeing tell me that i was dissassociating when I did that otherwise the pdocs were not very interested in what was going on when I just left ending up in goodness knows where usually hundreds of kms from home in quite mixed up states.It was more an approach of drug me up and wait for the medication to kick in
which I totally hate when that happens

[Ryask]

Originally Posted by mel80

Were you in a good frame or did you just allow the impulses to take over ?Would be interesting to know Most often for me it's a form of escapisim from whats really going on in my head at the time

I just didn't know what to do, so i left my job, my boyfriend, my apartment...i dunno i get very tempted to do this when i am depressed.

[mel80]

Originally Posted by astone131

I took off once leaving everything behind and went to Illinois with some guy for a few weeks

WOW was that impulsive or what? I've never done that thank goodness

[mel80]

Originally Posted by Ryask

I just didn't know what to do, so i left my job, my boyfriend, my apartment...i dunno i get very tempted to do this when i am depressed.

Yes I identify with you when you say you tend to do this when depressed. I have had many escapades where I have just up and left to get away from everything. However this usually ends up in a trip to the psych hospital for a stay that is not much fun at all

[SunAngel]

That's one thing I feel like doing a lot, but have never done it before.

[Rose76]

I would go off on my bicycle. Even if I had a car, I would leave it for fear I might get in an accident. One night, it was late, but I just kept riding till I was two towns away. Then I sat down against the wall of a bank to rest. A cruiser car happened to come by and the police got out to talk to me. The area I had got to was inner city. They talked to me. I ended up going with them to a psychiatric hospital. Some hours later I was let go, as I was completely rational. I rode the bike back through two towns to the town where I lived. I was very depressed.

[~Christina]

I think daily of just packing a duffel bag and my dog in a car and just drive off and not look back.. My T said thats " normal" for Bi Polar.. Finacially i have NO money nor a car right now so for me its just a lovely dream... Maybe one day I will do it ..

Wishing you Peace and Love~

[sugahorse1]

I have left my bf of 3 years before. And didn't really think clearly.
Now came creeping back, and it's been nearly 6 years that we're together. But it really isn't like me.

I often have HUGE urges to just bolt, especially when I'm in a situation I perceive to be vey stressful. Mostly I can keep it together though.
I have stormed out of conversations often though

[mel80]

Originally Posted by morethingswrong

I think daily of just packing a duffel bag and my dog in a car and just drive off and not look back.. My T said thats " normal" for Bi Polar.. Finacially i have NO money nor a car right now so for me its just a lovely dream... Maybe one day I will do it ..

Wishing you Peace and Love~

Hi I like to think dreams are free travel is not. In the past even when i have had no money i have just up and left on a journey to goodness no's where. Normally My thoughts are not exactly level headed

[Merlin]

I did, once. I went halfway across the country. I had told my parents that I was going to spend the night at a friends and instead got on a plane to Toronto. My plan was then to anonymously ask for help or complete suicide. I was a little ambivalent. My parents reported me missing to the RCMP who opened a missing persons' case as I was a danger to myself. They took a recorded statement from my father and put a trace on his phone line in case I called. Ultimately the local police found me debating whether or not to complete suicide (I had immediate access to the method) and took me to the hospital and my family was notified shortly afterwards. They flew out to take me home. I was 19 at the time.

[manicminer]

I've jumped in the truck at 4am and driven half-way across the state just to look at a pool that was closed. I told no-one and they were all searching for me in the morning. When I got back everyone was mad and I couldn't understand why

[ohlala]

Yes I have taken off when I was manic, flown to a destination, "shacked up" with a guy from an internet romance, left, visited relatives, left, visited friends, left, hung out with strangers, left, hung out by myself, left, made it home exhausted and wasted, tired hungry and strung out. I then slept for days...

Now I find myself depressed and trying to normalize by taking meds and talking with my pdoc and therapist after being off meds and depressed for months. My pdoc happened to ask me if I could name ONE THING that I do that makes me less depressed. The answer was I like to drive aimlessly. I just like to get in my car and "get lost" down streets and roads I've never explored in neighborhoods I'm unfamiliar with. He said as long as I'm doing this in the daylight with a full tank of gas and the doors locked, my cell phone, and don't get out of the car it's OK. I also have a GPS, so if I'm totally lost I can just follow the directions home. I'm usually not exploring "inner city" areas, just driving by the ocean or in the country and suburbs and small towns.

So yes, I like to take off. I've just "adapted" it to my present condition.