[CjnGyrl74]

So many things have happened to me this week, I'm not sure where to start,
well, besides having all these sudden, rapid cyclings this week. I think I'll start on last Thursday. I had went to an insurance agency to get car insurance (I've been broke and let mine run out). So, after I got the quote, I was leaving the office and backed into the girls car that worked there.
Remember, I have NO insurance. At the time, I was in such a mixed episode I didn't have a clue what to do or how to act. It was raining, I didn't even see her car and it was PARKED!!! Anyway, today I paid her $500 for her deductible.
The whole weekend I was so depressed almost catatonic, I just sat here and did nothing, I could barely talk, except for one morning I woke up more aggravated than anything.
We had Tropical Storm Lee come in over the weekend so it rained the whole time.
For the past 3 days, I've felt confused, dumb, I couldn't make a complete thought to save my life. Like my mind has gone into slow-mo. Even in the mornings on my way to work I listen to my iPod and the music sounded like it slowed down. Like it was two beats slower than usual. I could hear and understand each word that I never have before. This morning I had my step-sister listen, she couldn't tell a difference. I forgot how to do everything at work, it was mass confusion.
Finally, this afternoon, the Office Manager cut my hours back to where I'm only getting 20hrs a week. No Fridays. I have severe money woes. I declared Bankruptcy at the beginning of this year and I struggle.
Well, I cried for about 2hours. Almost got into a catatonic state again....
By 3pm, I was alright, back to laughing and smiling again. WTF??
Oh, I've had panic attacks also, but after the storm passed, the weather turned cool like fall, so I think that might be the reasoning for the rapidly shifting moods.
Now, I'm just sitting here, drinking a beer and have no idea which way to turn next.