[GladeGal]

Today is a day just like any other. I know that. But it feels fuzzy and blue. I want to see a friend but I'm too anxious to drive and I don't want anyone to see me like this. I feel weak and it's the worst feeling in the world knowing I have the strongest husband possible. He's so steady and I'm such a mess. The doc wants me to ease off the Risperidone as the Lexapro kicks in because my Prolactin is higher than it should be and if we can straighten my meds out soon enough, we plan to try for a baby next year. I worry constantly that I'll be a crazy unstable mom or pass this craziness on to my little one. I know deep down that I can be a good mom but what if I'm wrong?

I have great friends to talk to but getting a hold of them can be tough. My best friend is also a bipolar gal so it can be hard to talk to each other. When I'm down she's off in a manic phase like right now so she's impossible to get in touch with she's being so social. My other BF is in college so he's way too stressed and busy to call much. And my husband is fantastic but sometimes I need a friend to talk this stuff out with because I feel like I'm putting so much pressure on him. I need a hug and a nap.

((((GladeGal))) I know the feeling, I am right there myself. We are here for you tho. Bigs hugs to you

[Detach]

I love the title of this post! Been lost in my mania for weeks....feel as though I have a "normal" mood now. However this can feel like depression after having mania.
As far as having a child: Can you pass on Bipolar? Yes. My mother is Bipolar. My son has a mood disorder, not sure if it's Bipolar yet. Do I regret bringing him into this world? NO. I'm the best mom possible and you will be also.... don't worry now about that which you have no control in the present moment. Many people with heart disease and diabetes have children AND pass on the genetic code of their illnesses.
God bless!

[sleet]

Everything will be shaping up. Dont worry too much, GladeGal

[GladeGal]

Thank you for the wonderful comments. I'm definitely in a downward spiral right now. No reason to be blue and yet I am. Nothing is making me happy at all. I'm going to a theme park this weekend with my husband and we're staying in a really nice hotel. I've been looking forward to this for 8 weeks and now...I don't really care if we go or not. Thanks god I have a doc appt. in the morning. Maybe there will be something positive to boost me to at least enjoy the trip. Why do the lows have to drag me down so much? I was so content with everything just a few days ago....

[lost in]

i think lows drag you down so much because i have so little energy to make efforts to lift me out. movement helps. even if i think i don't have the energy, a walk seems to be possible. i try to focus on the experience of others to help me get out of the thoughts bouncing (seemingly endlessly) around my head. i think (and ask) about what they're thinking and feeling and it often sort of rubs off on me. best wishes on your outing and your life's journey