Well my app went pretty good I guess, good thing she had tissues. First question on the list was "tell me about your father?" Ugggh what, It took me a couple minutes before I could even respond. This was gonna become a theme as the questions got harder. Then we got to the sexual abuse questioning, which I didn't even think about that being on there. Then things got real hard, trying to tell her when , how old and such as my mind was just blank, I really tried to forget these events. Not to be confused this was not to do with my father. We didn't even get through the first session, will have to finish up next time.

So now I am being referred to the sexual abuse clinic as well , and on top of that she is phoning my t to let her know about even more issues that I need to work on. OMG I am always such a work in progress, I need to have a sign.

I am just trying to take in what was said, I never speak of certain events, and can't believe I told her. I don't know what to do with this new information, or how to process it. I never pictured myself getting treatment for anorexia, never mind, sexual abuse.

[Gus1234U]

{{{{ Anika }}}} i know it feels like a jungle in there now, but soon i hope you will finally feel at ease

[AniManiac]

(((Anika)))

Never imagined I'd be in treatment for bipolar, for that matter! Try to take advantage of the help that is being offered, though - a work in progress is better than stuck in the mud.

[Secretum]

((Anika)) I think you're a strong person for battling all of that, yet still being a mom to your children, coming on here, and doing all the other things you do! You're not only a work in progress (as we all are, to some extent); you're an inspiration.

[dejavu65]

Originally Posted by Anika

I am just trying to take in what was said, I never speak of certain events, and can't believe I told her.

It amazes me what we are asked to share. You are strong and as Secretum said "an inspiration. I trust you will be able to work your way through this.

[espritlibre]

We are all 'works in progress' (or cookie dough, to quote BtVS!) That's what makes us ever unique - we are never fully 'done', but always evolving and growing. Try to see it as a positive outcome that you are being offered all this help. It must seem pretty overwhelming at the moment, but I know you have strength within you to get through this, because you have shown that strength, and kindness, in reaching out to so many of us here at psychcentral. Remember to show yourself that same kindness. I'll keep you in my thoughts, as I know many others will too xx

[roads]

Originally Posted by espritlibre

you have shown that strength, and kindness, in reaching out to so many of us here at psychcentral. Remember to show yourself that same kindness.

Amen & amen. As the others said too, you are strong & an inspiration. You can do this.

I'm all in, behind you & for you. Good thoughts, whatever I can do.

[kindachaotic]

(((Anika))) Ditto on all the wonderful things everyone has said!
This session started right off with BANG, tough stuff. I am SO proud of you.
A work in progress is monumental compared to no work at all.
Hang in there, we're all here for you.

[Trippin2.0]

I'm s0 proud of you, please keep trying, you're going in the right directi0n. My thoughts and prayers are with you. And please remember this: you are worthy. X0X0

[Confusedinomicon]

((Hugs))

This gives me the strength to see my T again. Thank you!

Wow!!!!!!! Thank you so much everyone for your emence support and kindest sweetest words. I cried as I read through the replies. I don't think I've ever had this much support or people believing in me. I should print this out for all those times when I loose faith in myself.

You guys are absolutely amazing. I'm going to read it again and have another cry. Then I have to get it together and get to yoga one last time before I leave for my trip. Thank you for helping me find the strength to keep plowing through.

I hope you all have a good weekend.

[espritlibre]

You are very welcome, Anika. Have fun at yoga and enjoy your weekend

Being a work in progress is a good thing. If we stay the same we will never heal. I think it's great that you opened up and now you're going to get more support.

[dragonfly2]