[Star Gazer 80]

found it very hard to pay attention and consintrate at work today. my mind just wondered as I started many things and by the end of the day got them done but it was hard to get started and finsih a simple task that takes me mins to do. I felt more like Jessi yet still wanted to just crawl in a ball in my bed and cry. Cry about what I really don't have an answer I just wanted to. I'm home now and i have already snapped at my kid. Husband didn't pick him up I had to leave work to get him. I'm all worried I'm going to loose my job. Darn 4 year olds not old enough to stay home alone! I have to work 10-6:30 (usually work 8-4:30) next week and I just keep thinking my boss is going to fire me b/c I can't work the late shift. he is going to yell and me and that will cause me to cry at work and i'm afraide that the only "safty" i currently feel is at work will all come tumbling down and I will feel scared everywhere. I don't like to be at home I just want to cry (starting to as I type) At least at work no one knows the true Jessi. The at home jessi. Well we will put in the week after all it is only Monday.

[dejavu65]

Sounds like a tough day. I too have a huge problem concentrating at work. And I also let my problems sometimes get the better of me and snap at my child. I hate that. I have found comfort in knowing that others here have some of the same problems that I do. It kind of lets you know you are not alone.

I do not know what kind of job your husband has but is it possible to talk to him about how important it is that he helps out and supports you so you can get through these next two weeks at work.

I am sure that some disagree that keeping home and work separate is a necessity. No one at work knows what I go through at home and I want to keep it that way. I don't think that you keeping the two separate is bad.

I hope all goes well and you are able to get through the next two weeks without too much stress.