[expressiveone]

I want to give up on this semester. I haven't washed my hair in 5 days. I just can't deal with it. I have no motivation and cannot handle the pressure. I'm exhausted. I made it so far this semester and now this. I just feel down and it is not going away. I just started lamictal along with my effexor but it is going to take a while to titrate up. This is so hard. I feel guilty about it too but I just can't do it.

[expressiveone]

Originally Posted by expressiveone

I want to give up on this semester. I haven't washed my hair in 5 days. I just can't deal with it. I have no motivation and cannot handle the pressure. I'm exhausted. I made it so far this semester and now this. I just feel down and it is not going away. I just started lamictal along with my effexor but it is going to take a while to titrate up. This is so hard. I feel guilty about it too but I just can't do it.

I also think I am going through risperdal withdrawl. I haven't taken it in 2 days. I feel like I need a break until my my meds are at a theraputic dose. argh this is so hard.

[blondemom]

I know it's hard. I'm in school too and have thought about just giving up on my bad days. But I ask myself "what do I want?" The answer is, I want to finish school so I can make more money and make a better future for my kids. In order to do that, I have to get good grades...in order to do that I have to get out my book and study for the test. Reminding myself what I want and breaking it down into really small steps helps me on my bad days when I want to give up. Nike is on to something when they say "Just do it." I tell myself that one all the time. Before too long if I just keep going and doing it, I've accomplished something and I think, 'hey, I did that'. Hang in there! You can do it! Even if you need to take a break until your meds are worked out, don't ever give up on your goals. You can do it!

[blondemom]

p.s. I've gone longer than that not washing my hair it's ok. You'll get there.

[ohlala]

I'm sorry you feel so down. My hygiene tanks when I'm depressed as well. I mean, I've timed that washing my hair and a shower takes all of 12 minutes (!) but when I'm depressed it ain't happening. It's good that you know your diagnosis. Mine came very late in life and when I look back on the mood swings (when I was in college and through the years) I went through all of that torture without meds or a dx. It was awful. Just try to keep up with your classes, maybe call the prof and meet with him/her privately, let them know you're going through a rough patch but you still want to do everything you can to complete the course(s). Maybe they'll cut you a little break. Hope you feel better.

[Sheba976]

I know it takes awhile for the Lamictal but it really does work. At 50mg I was noticing a difference. Hang in there! Now that I have been at 100 mg for 2 or 3 weeks, I really don't get into bad depressions. I find myself starting to think those old thoughts but they disappear easily and I don't dwell on them. I felt like crying the other day and I couldn't. Hang in there. Lamictal is great to ward of any bad depressions. Just think of this as your last severe depression. You will be feeling better soon.