
I can't seem to bring myself to do anything about managing my triggers. I'm wondering if my hysterectomy in June is the culprit, because since then I've stopped really taking care of myself. I don't exercise, I'm not watching my diet...and I'm using again. I'm not doing the chemicals that I loved soooo much, but I know it's just a matter of time, since I've been seriously looking for it. I know what I should be doing, but why can't I just do it? Needless to say I've been in depression for a few months, and I've been making horrible choices, so I know a manic phase is fast approaching, and for me that's worse then the depression.