Late nights without Manicminer here to give us a late night thread. Still feeling hypo, yup. Not at all sleepy, check. Sleeping pills, nope. Busy day tomorrow, you bettcha. I am terrified of not sleeping, that is where mania makes magic.

I tried reading, and warm almond milk haha aggh. Tried a bath. My mind is rrrrracing. This is not good. Not good at all.

[argv]

I always have a bottle of melatonin for that. I used to take that and nyquil, but apparently nyquil doesn't mix well with some antipsychotic meds. Boo!!

haha yes, Nyquil doesn't mix with me alone, never mind antipsychotics. I swear when I take it I can actually hear my brain cells zapping. It's not real pleasant, or conductive to sleep. I haven't tried melatonin.

I went off all my antipsychotics awhile back, which would probably be why I find myself in this predicament. But I think my pdoc will have to drag me kicking and screaming to get me back on them.

*sigh* guess it's back to the olden days of counting sheep

[Trippin2.0]

Hope you get some rest soon my friend

[argv]

yeah I'm not sure about these A.P. Pills. I'd rather not sleep than feel like my intestines are fighting. Melatonin works really well! The only thing is that you wanna take it early and try to get at least 8 hours of sleep. You might feel slightly groggy in the mornin, but it's a nice, natural sleep. I take half of one and it still works without too much grog in the am.

[Rosie23]

Originally Posted by Anika

Late nights without Manicminer here to give us a late night thread. Still feeling hypo, yup. Not at all sleepy, check. Sleeping pills, nope. Busy day tomorrow, you bettcha. I am terrified of not sleeping, that is where mania makes magic.

I tried reading, and warm almond milk haha aggh. Tried a bath. My mind is rrrrracing. This is not good. Not good at all.

I thought of Manicminer yesterday and was wondering how he was doing.

Do you like tea? I have heard some of them are good for sleep and also relaxation C.D's. I had one and it worked really well. So well in fact that I have bought it twice only to give both of them to friends. Doesn't do me much good though. lol

[~Christina]

Awwwwww (((( Anika ))))
Hopefully you got some sleep ! if not try and rest as much as possible .. We all know where things like this can lead if we dont watch it carefully ..

Are you at least going to count colorful sheep ? plain white ones bore me LOL

Take care

Anyone else feel like they need to breath into a manic breathalyzer before posting?? Or just me?

I'm feeling meh. Only got two hours sleep. Have sons birthday party today. My daughter in pain with her arm from surgery, and I'm having major back pain and trying to keep myself from getting to high, on a plus side anxiety is running at about +10. I dunno, I dunno, I no know. I am not wanting to call my pdoc at all. I'll wait and see. I'm gonna be sooo dissapointed if this turns into another full blown episode. honestly I have not been stable for more than a week at time since well march last year. Almost a year wow.

I've been trying and doing everything I know to stabilize, just isn't happening. Do I really need to be on a cocktail nearing 2 digits? I don't know what else to try.

I'm using the mindfulness, yoga, meditation, diet, meds, routine. Am I missing something ?

[Rosie23]

Wow. I am sorry you feel so bad. Is there any chance the pain meds for your back are having an effect on your other meds?

My husband was disabled from his back so I know what you deal with every day and hard that is. Not easy to live with that.

Have you checked the interactions with all your meds. Sometimes doctors or pharmacists screw up. Or could be the combination(s) are not right for you?

Thanks Rosie,
to your husband. No I don't take any pain meds. Not even adivil or tylonal. Right now I'm only taking lithium and tegretol. I wa on 6 meds but got down to two, maybe that wasn't wise, but I was a real zombie.

The back pain isn't constant but flares up for some reason at times. I went to a chiropractor for about a year and no improvement, doesn't seem to be anything really wrong with it either as far as my dr can tell. Gettin old maybe?

Thanks for the support. With the moods I always tell myself just one more hoop to jump through and then I can rest. Haha I dunno anymore.

[kindachaotic]

Anika, Hope things went well for your sons bday party. Know you had to be tired, but tonight maybe you can get some sleep.
Have you tried Valerian root capsules from health food store or chamomile (sp?) tea. Don't know about any interactions with your meds tho.
You know to be self aware, I wish I knew something to help you feel better. Doing any knitting or puzzles, is tonight movie night.

Sending peaceful thoughts & prayers your way.

You know, I tried valerian in tea many years ago, forgot about that. Good idea. Chamomile doesn't really do too much.

Well my bf took all the boys to the theatre to see a movie so my daughter and I have about 2 hours of peace until all the 13 year old boys return for a sleep over haha. It'll be ok. I probably should have picked up some ear plugs while I was out.

I think we'll just watch some tv and hey knitting is a good idea!

[~Christina]

Ear plugs !!!! Be nice to yourself

K well I still dunno. My new answer. Dunno. I don't feel manic, but I still only got 2.5 hours sleep last night, even after my exhaustive bikram class. I was physically exhausted but again my mind was racing like mad. Today I just felt uh bad. Tired, and in pain. I cancelled out of bikram tonight and did some vinyasa flow at home instead.

Another thing to stress over is that even tho I have been eating, my weight has been dropping rapidly over the last two weeks I have lost ten lbs, leaving me sitting at around 89 lbs. now. I am five feet tall, so it is not like I'm emancipated, but still not good. Gonna admit that right now, because I know it is a problem, and maybe there is an obvious correlation between my weight change and mood flux. This does happen when I am manic, seriously don't know why because I seem to be doing ok in regards with the anorexia, maybe I over estimate what goes in. My dietician won't be thrilled. And I hate to admit, but during my hot yoga last night I could barely do the poses I was so fatigued, nauseous and almost blacking out.

Hopefully I can get some sleep tonight. I'm starting to get a bit worried. I do remember what happened last time. Looks familiar.

[grandmaof3]

Sorry you're having a bad time (((HUGS))) You might have to give in and call your pdoc. I know the meds are a drag but I've resigned myself to having to take them. I'm on enough Geodon for 10 people but I am still having manic episodes. It doesn't make me groggy either. I don't know what to tell you. I hope the birthday party goes well.

[~Christina]

(((( Anika)))) Oh how i worry about you ... hopefully you can get out of this really fast ,, soounds like its heading for a worse place .. maybe its time to call the doctor and get maybe a sleeping pill to at least maybe give you more rest ?

(((((((((( Anika )))))))))))))

Grammaof3 & Christina,

Thank you. I took the advice and called in. I got a xr for ativan, hopefully that will be enough. I slept for 1 hour this morning, my mind was ok I think, but I had horrid stomach cramps and back pain. Thing is tho I don't feel tired at all, so there it is.

Maybe just getting my sleep back on track, and I'll try to get more calories in, shouldn't be too hard as I'm on my bf's radar now. I know my weight does affect my stability mood wise. I'm really starting to "get" that.

One good thing about PC, is being able to look back through your old posts and get a clear picture of what went wrong. And think " Ooh God! these should all be deleted!!" But really good reminder of why I need to call sooner, I know I'm stubborn, I don't like meds at all, nor do I like my pdoc. But I really don't like thinking I need monkeys in every room to protect me from little people hiding in the closets even more.

That stubborness has got me into trouble in the past, that is undeniable.

Oh, on a brighter note, my bikram yoga studio is offering that we bring our spouse or partner for free tonight for valentines day. so after some arm pulling and twisting and yanking I finally got my boyfriend to agree. I am pretty excited about it, I can't wait to show him what we do there.

He hates the heat so hopefully he doesn't die. I am also kinda hoping he likes it, he has an autoimmune disease that acts much like rheumatoid arthritis, and it would be really awesome if this could help him. Too excited to keep it to myself.

[kindachaotic]

YAY Score one for team Anika!!! Let us know how it goes.

Yay, totally SCORE!!! But he just texted me saying he was having an anxiety attack over it. Haha oppps! Hopefully that will clear up before we get there.

[Woundedheart1]

Valerian root is a good all natural substitute but check with doc abt how it reacts with other meds. I personally take seroquel for sleep and it works great but again duscuss w doc. Been in your shoes before it's not fun. Best ok link getting sleep soon .