[Hydrophobic1212]

So I don't know if this fits in this thread, but it's the best place I know to come for support...

But anyways, I'm really depressed right about now. My mother just said something to me that makes me feel like she doesn't give a crap about me at all.

I get these really bad headaches, and then sometimes accompanied with them (and then what I'm about to explain happens without them, too), I feel dizzy and lightheaded, my body trembles, and my chest feels... Light? That's the best way I can explain it. Like my heart's made of nothing and it's just empty in there. I feel like I'm going to pass out! It scares the crap out of me, honestly. Obviously, I do get anxious, however, I don't see this being anxiety related. It could be, but when it happens, I'm not anxious at all and I'm just fine. It happens whenever, really. It's always a good thing to get it checked out with a doctor first, to make sure it's nothing health related.

So, tomorrow, I have a doctors appointment, for my annual check up. My mom told me I can tell her about my issues, but then she said this: "If she wants to do extra tests, we're not doing it." Just because it costs extra money. So she won't spend the money to make sure her daughter is healthy? What if the doctor doesn't think it's anxiety related? What if it could be something more serious? To me, it's almost like saying "I'm just going to let you die" just because it "costs money". I understand that it costs a lot to go to the doctor now, but isn't it worth it to make sure nothing is seriously wrong with me?

So that's why I'm feeling pretty down right now. I know she does love me, but that really hit home for me.

[BlackPup]

Maybe of she goes with you to the appointment the doc can convince her if you need further testing. Most likely you will need additional tests to know what is causing your symptoms unless it is something simple like low blood pressure or a med side effect. hope you feel better soon

[Hydrophobic1212]

Thanks... And I hope the doctor can. But I still won't know if I need additional testing or not, not until tomorrow. We'll have to see!!

[fortunatevoice]

My mom would do the same thing, I never went to therapy for years just because of money. I didn't go until I moved away and had free/discounted services at university.

Money is a legitimate issue, I'm sure she still loves you! But your health is important too. Go to the appointment and bring it up, if the doctor has a strong suspicion about something and feels strongly that you should get additional tests, then hopefully the doc will be able to get your mom to see the light. Good luck.

[Hydrophobic1212]

Well, the doctor thinks I'm anemic for starters, but she is also concerned about my feeling in my chest and all that. We didn't have enough time to discuss it today, but she said to make an additional appointment soon so we can go over everything, without her rushing through things. She said it's serious and needs to be talked about. My mother is STILL hesitant about it. Even though the doctor SAID it could be serious. It'll never end, it seems.