[grlnmt66]

...that ppl at work are reacting differently to me...Im not sure if they really are OR its just my perception...Im trying to contain myself but sometimes it seems like its getting harder to do OR I just plain dont care. Its starting to freak me out a little.. =/

[BipolaRNurse]

I'm getting the same thing at home. I thought I was doing pretty well, and then my sister says to me tonight, "Well, I'm sure glad you had that talk with your son because you'll be a whole lot easier to live with if you two aren't fighting." I thought I WAS easier to live with since I've been on meds.....I can't help it, I'm disappointed in her reaction because I have NOT been acting crazy, and it feels like I'm doing all this work for nothing.

I'll get over it---always do---but damn, that stung.

[jaypop30]

Have your co-workers said anything to you about your mood or have you heard anything being said about you when they talk for you to perseive that they have an issue with you.

[grlnmt66]

JAYPOP30~ They havent said anything and I havent heard anything...They dont have an issue with me as far as I know...Its just that Im WAY perkier than normal...and Im pretty perky anyway,lol!

[grlnmt66]

bipolaRNurse~ Im sorry your feelings were hurt....Sometimes ppl talk without thinking, unfortunately.

[moremi]

I would say it is just your perception being a bit off because you are hypomanic. They may be thinking wow shes in a especially great mood but Im sure that they are not thinking anything bad. Being perky at work is a good thing. Other co workers may actually envy the fact you are so happy with your life that you can be that way at work. I found thats how it was when I was working and hypomanic others were actually jealous of my performance and output at work and the fact that I could work circles around them with little effort and they were drained. This was an office with only 17women, no men. Too much estrogen to begin with. One of them actually accused me of being on drugs..... Ha ha I was manic as hell. If only I could have said my euphoria is better than any damn drug you could ever buy, and yes Im high but not on drugs. Its funny some people are actually envious of this disease. They just dont know exactly how hard my very lows can get though and they never will.

[moremi]

Originally Posted by BipolaRNurse

I'm getting the same thing at home. I thought I was doing pretty well, and then my sister says to me tonight, "Well, I'm sure glad you had that talk with your son because you'll be a whole lot easier to live with if you two aren't fighting." I thought I WAS easier to live with since I've been on meds.....I can't help it, I'm disappointed in her reaction because I have NOT been acting crazy, and it feels like I'm doing all this work for nothing.

I'll get over it---always do---but damn, that stung.

Im sorry she came at you like that. She sounds like she might be a person who might need to stick her foot in her mouth often. I know and am very close to a person like that. She never really means to put me down she is actually trying to compliment me but it always comes out in a condescending way. I actually avoid conversations with her in certain moods because I dont want to be offended by things she says because I know she doesnt actually mean to be mean to me. I think this woman was trying to tell you that you are doing better. Im sure she realizes you had improved already before and are still improving. Your work is definately not worthless. Working on you and better yourself and your life could never be worthless or pointless even if some people dont realize the hard work your doing there are those that do and you can feel better about yourself too. But yet I do understand the sting your talking about, I have felt it too. Just let it roll of your shoulder because people just cant understand exactly how hard we work at trying to live a normal life because they have never had to try it comes naturally for them so they assume it should for us too..... so not the case. Hugs to you

[BipolaRNurse]

Thank you, Crystal. That helps me tremendously!

[SmokeyPoole2012]

Lets hope that they know your having manic episodes and not on crack or speed or methamphetamines. People tend to see actions like yours as a drug problem. Just be carefull and don't let your actions cause ruin.

Not trying to sound negative but I've faced the same situation in the past many of times and the result was I lost my job. People don't always understand nor do they have motive to. Unfortunately it's easier to replace you and just to send you on your way to deal with your oun issues. Please be carefull.

[grlnmt66]

smokeypoole~ VERY good point! Im going to heed your advice...