Bahhhh I've been soo emotional lately. I'm not really down, definitely not up, not pms, but I'm just a bit messy. Hyper sensitive, crying over spilt milk kinda thing. I don't know if it's withdrawal from gluten and dairy. Or because I haven't been at yoga for quite a while, maybe a combo. I haven't been at yoga because my weight dropped to a point where I think being in that hot room would be dangerous. I've been trying to gain but it isn't happening. I went out and got some protien shakes and protien smoothies, maybe that will help. Plus money, yoga is $$$$ for someone like me on disability. My bf went to my yoga studio last night and bought me a bunch of sessions because he sees how much I'm sliding. Yoga was my saving grace even over meds sooo yes I really need to get back there.

Yesterday and today my body hurts so badly, I don't know if it's my bones or muscles but it's every single inch of my body. I feel like I can hardly move. Last night I just laid in bed and cried because of the pain. I don't do that often so I know the pain is bad. Again I'm thinking what the heck. Can gluten and dairy withdrawal be this bad. I googled it and others say it is. Hopefully that's what it is.

Finally I will be back at yoga on Sunday, I'm scared and nervous. Since I haven't been going my muscles have wasted, I think my body have been using them for food . I'm dissapoonted that I let that happen. Hopefully I'll make it through the class without blacking out or dying haha agghhh. I just want to ge back to where I was.

[Trippin2.0]

I'm sorry you're in such pain, I'm sure that it's feeding that flakey feeling. I pray this all passes soon, and hope the yoga provides you with what you need

[vjdragonfly]

Anika I understand where you are at right now. I hope the pain subsides soon. It is great you are getting back in yoga. If you really feel you are at an unhealthy weight a visit to the doctor might prove beneficial. There are many thing that can cause weight loss. Best of luck to you .

[Irreplaceable]

You know.....I've really been debating doing yoda. No money. If I do decide to do it, it will be something that is done at home and free...Anika do you have to go to classes? Is that a stupid question? Perhaps you can do yoda at home during those times that you don't have the money to go to class? Yoda seems so relaxing. My sister does it and said I should try it. But back on track....I hope you feel better....I know how being emotional often gets in the way of doing day to day things that need to get done. Hope you feel better....

Thank you. Yes I think that is making me flakier Trippin.

Th weight loss is because of my anorexic behavior and because I've been having health problems with food allergies am gallbladder problems. It's a bit of a mess but I'm hopefully getting it sorted.

I was doing well with the anorexia when goin to yoga. It really helped my thoughts and body image. But you know when you stop going things start to slide back into old ways. Mentally with the anorexia I'm doing not to bad. But I have been engaging in the restriction to a point. Not even restricting really but feeling like I've ate alot more than I have.

It's the stupid pain. And I don't like to take pain killers, but when my shoulder becomes immobile from pain something would be nice. My dr is anti pain meds unless you are dying so crap out of luck there. Over the counter stuff doesn't even touch it. I can still brush my hair and get dressed so it's not as bad as it has been. Best I keep that in mind.

Maybe I should try doing some yoga at home so I'm more prepared to go back. I miss feeling good and being stable. This wishy washy crying and falling apart... I do not miss at all.

Originally Posted by Irreplaceable

You know.....I've really been debating doing yoda. No money. If I do decide to do it, it will be something that is done at home and free...Anika do you have to go to classes? Is that a stupid question? Perhaps you can do yoda at home during those times that you don't have the money to go to class? Yoda seems so relaxing. My sister does it and said I should try it. But back on track....I hope you feel better....I know how being emotional often gets in the way of doing day to day things that need to get done. Hope you feel better....

Well I've tried doing it at home, and I'll do ok for a week and then my motivation drops out. When I go to class I also do yoga at home, I find going to the studio helps me stay motivated and disciplined. Plus I go to Bikram yoga, the hot yoga. I love the feeling but can't get my house that hot or humid. The other reason I like to go there is because I don't get out. I'm on disability and I'm pretty isolated. I don't know many people, so I get to socialize a bit and work on my social skills, trying to meet people and be less shy. And because I get to be around like minded people. I don't have anyone to connect with on a spiritual front.

If you do try to get into yoga, I think you will not regret it one bit. There are lots of great DVDs out there now to with lots of variety. It's helped with my bipolar more than any meds have in 7 years. Anxiety, stress, depression, my body image, life perspective, positive attitude and just overall peace and contentment. Haha seriously it has helped me soo much. It's definitely worth a shot. Nothing to loose at all. I think if you try some different types out and find a style you like best you will be very happy you did. .

I do need to work on my motivation an discipline so that if I can't afford to go I can keep up on my own. Making myself make the time is hard for me. But it's doable, I just have to keep my priorities straight.

[Irreplaceable]

Originally Posted by Anika

Well I've tried doing it at home, and I'll do ok for a week and then my motivation drops out. When I go to class I also do yoga at home, I find going to the studio helps me stay motivated and disciplined. Plus I go to Bikram yoga, the hot yoga. I love the feeling but can't get my house that hot or humid. The other reason I like to go there is because I don't get out. I'm on disability and I'm pretty isolated. I don't know many people, so I get to socialize a bit and work on my social skills, trying to meet people and be less shy. And because I get to be around like minded people. I don't have anyone to connect with on a spiritual front.

If you do try to get into yoga, I think you will not regret it one bit. There are lots of great DVDs out there now to with lots of variety. It's helped with my bipolar more than any meds have in 7 years. Anxiety, stress, depression, my body image, life perspective, positive attitude and just overall peace and contentment. Haha seriously it has helped me soo much. It's definitely worth a shot. Nothing to loose at all. I think if you try some different types out and find a style you like best you will be very happy you did. .

I do need to work on my motivation an discipline so that if I can't afford to go I can keep up on my own. Making myself make the time is hard for me. But it's doable, I just have to keep my priorities straight.

I agree with all of the bolded...Actually I agree with everything. Being shy and introverted is something that takes practice and mind over matter. It takes time to get to a point where you are comfortable meeting and mingling with new people. I used to be timid and quiet. Nervous to meet new people and talk in groups. Social anxiety. And I actually still have some issues with it now, but not as bad as before. For me, I had to break my mentality and work on my self-esteem. Like I said, it took a lot of time and forcing myself to do things that I normally wouldn't be comfortable doing. Kinda like learning how to ride a bike. Once you learn, you think to yourself, "This isn't as bad/hard as I thought it would be"...As much as I talk and am outspoken, for the life of me, I cannot talk in front of a group of people. I get sweaty, my mind races, I get nervous, stomache hurts, nauseous. Grrrrrrr. I hate it. For the most part I can control my anxiety, but in other situations, no matter how hard I try, I can't do it.

As far as yoga, I'm pretty certain this will work for me. I just need to find the time to really learn about it and get serious about it. My problem is, everything else and everyone else must come before me. School, work, kid, bf, household responsibilities, bills. Once I get some down time, all I want to do is lay. It takes self discpline. I'm working on it. This is a part of the reason I fall a part as easily and often as I do...I go go go go go because I don't have time for me...But yoga will help. I like to meditate....I see yoga as being a somewhat meditating technique.