[cocoabeans]

Sometimes when I'm mildly depressed, I like it. I'm not sure exactly what just the feeling I get, nothing else matters, then I stay in bed all day, don't shower or do anything and it feels good to just lie there being miserable. But, if it gets bad, clearly that isn't enjoyable especially if my brain starts on about strange things...

It isn't like I'm really talking to anyone or getting attention because of it and I really don't enjoy that kind of thing, mild depression seems to be a comfort zone. Or maybe, I just enjoy the freedom from anxiety because depression for me means a whole lot of apathy.

Does anyone even know what I'm talking about?

[RobertDark]

All I can say is, whatever floats your boat. I don't like depression regardless of it's severity. Nothing good has ever come from me being depressed. I can easily see good in manic and normal states, that just isn't true of depression, Not for me anyhow.

[ChristySpirals]

I get it, it's like laying on the couch on a rainy day. It's comfortable and who gives a **** about the dishes in the sink. WHOA where did that comes from lol. Anyways ya, whatever makes you content is what should matter as long as, like you said, it doesn't go too far.

I don't care for depression either! I'm an introvert so I enjoy quietness and thnking, reading, writing, sewing, etc., but that's different from depression.

Frankly, I'd rather have neither depression nor mania--a good, stable balance would
be very nice.

The image of the polar bear with his head on the ice and pushing himself along with
his hind legs is the picture of depression that I have in mind.

Genetic

[Anneinside]

No, I really find depression to be uncomfortable. I don't usually stay in mild depression long before I crash into severe depression and suicidal thoughts. I can put up with hypo/mania but not depression. For me, mania is expensive while depression is dangerous.

[Eloise42]

Yeah I think I do. For one thing I've spent SO much of my life in various states of depression that there is something very familiar and oddly comforting about it.

I lay in bed marathoning tv shows and playing solitaire. And several times a year I order two pineapple pizzas and then do NOTHING but lay in bed and eat them while watching tv. If I forgive myself ahead of time for the ensuing shame and self-esteem spiral it does tend to be somewhat enjoyable.

[BNLsMOM]

Sometimes we all need a little time out. Are we confusing taking a time out for a day or two with mild depression? I ask because I get the two confused all the time.

[cocoabeans]

No, time out is behavior that can happen whenever, for me, more often than not actually. What I'm talking about is definitely not that. It is a mood and a saddness but, it feels good.

Oh and of course yes, it ends up worse and oh no, I don't enjoy that.

[bluematador]

I think I could like it more if I didn't feel guilty about it. I get so lazy and lethargic. I watch movies or read all day. I cancel all my social engagements. Sometimes I get that way for weeks. I'm usually really active in the community and I try to do something productive everyday. When I'm mildly depressed all my disciplines slip to the wayside. All of my healthy routines crumble. I stop cooking and eat things like popcorn or peanuts for dinner. I guess it feels a little selfish and self destructive.

[Victoria'smom]

Mild moods are not my friend no matter what mood they are. I just don't know what to do with them.

[Secretum]

I don't enjoy depression at all. It's hard for me to tell how severe my depression is at any one point because I never stop functioning completely. It's definitely been worse than mild because my performance does suffer (against my will; I keep trying and trying to try, but I just can't), and I've been significantly suicidal.

Depression for me-at any level of severity- means feeling like my soul is rotting inside of me, feeling physically ill, exhausted, and completely without any confidence in my ability to do anything correctly. I hate it. But, to each his own.

[bluemountains]

I don't like depression, but for some reason I have no desire to make it better.
I don't want to hear all of the advice from my t when I am depressed. I just want to curl up and feel sorry for myself. It is so hard to dig out for me when I am there.
Bluemountains

[cocoabeans]

No desire to make it better...yea. That's like it then, maybe my brain is like "that's not logical, you must like this."