[cocoabeans]

My ears are annoying me just the sounds coming in, the hair on the side of my head falling on my face, my thumbs, the texture of all fabric, birds outside my window, SHUT UP already!!!!!!!!

Thoughts in my head, uck off!!!!!!

I don't want to sit still, I'm not comfortable. I want to lie still, I'm tired and annoyed. Why am I typing???? Shut Up.

Everything, the blank stare strangers on the bus carry around, and ******* it!!!!! This font.

BLAH!!!! I want to destroy!!!! But, maybe dance around while I do it, lalala into oblivion.

I've been annoyed by everything the last few days, I ranted to my husband, his response? Take your medication then.

I hardly see being annoyed a reason to take meds.

[Trippin2.0]

Haha! I don't see the med connection either.
I'm easily annoyed too, and at times experience something similar to what you describe. What I say to myself is, 'that colour is not doing anything to you. CHILL!' or ask myself what exactly is it DOING to get a rise out of me, instead of making a statement. Helps me gain a bit of perspective, which is always good for a way forward. Hope your annoyance dries up soon

[ChristySpirals]

I hear ya and I'm sorry you feel that way.

Hubby told me that the combination of quitting booze and taking meds is my issues...I will take a moment to print out a diploma for him when I'm feeling more sarcastic...blah

I was laying in bed looking at the ceiling last night and there was a purple hue...should be pretty right???? nah it annoyed me cuz I knew it wasn't real.

[BlueInanna]

I've been in the same boat! Is it mania? What the **** is wrong with me?? I'm worried I'll break my teeth with all the grrrrr I've been doing. I took my darned lithium, 2 klonopins still awake. I have to go get the blood test before pdoc can change any meds. But I feel like meds won't help - I think I need something different, less stress, but that won't happen until I get caught up on work. And trying to figure out my triggers - it's everything is a trigger! *trying to just breathe* hopefully this is something that will pass soon.

[Victoria'smom]

You explained how I feel when I start going into hypomania.

[cocoabeans]

I could go for some hypomania! Haha.

It is annoying... That my annoyance should be medicated, in my husband's mind. He has bipolar as well so, perhaps I can't totally discount his discounting my annoyances or... Is it even discounting my feelings to say, take your meds then? Heh. That was yesterday or the day before, I'll choose my battles wisely and let that one go.

Besides, it is super hot, sunny and nice outside. Lovin' it!

Ugh, now I want a big mac! Darn McDonald's advertising slogans!

Folks, do some serious research on the benefits of vitamin C in your diet and the necessity to increase it far above the level of the government's recommendation for
sufficient amounts to prevent scurvy. I'm not talking foolishly. If you do enough research you're going to find that, chemically, Vitamin C is very, very helpful in
helping feeling tone, (including helping manufacture serotonin, the feel-well neurotransmitter).

One of the problems with sugar ingestion is that it travels on the same pathway that
vitamin C does, and in so travelling, glucose will always take precedence over Vitamin C, leaving a deficit of Vitamin C in the system. Increase your Vitamin C to let the good effects begin to work on your system. (It will also help curb the craving for sweets if you have enough circulating in your system.) Sugar mimics the highs and lows of mild bipolar illness, is addictive and bad news for the body.

There are so many references which you might refer to regarding all this and if you do your work, you may reap benefits you never thought you might be able to achieve with bipolar illness.

I'm of the opinion that if we get the things straightened out in our diets, we can do so much more with the mental irritation, impatience, depression, etc. that are part of bipolar illness, as well as the manic episodes (which are a reaction to depression).

Remember that the illness is caused by a portion of the brain that fires too rapidly,
and it is a chemical imbalance. Those are pretty physiological and need to be addressed.
My psychiatrist refers to it as an "inflammation" of the brain.

Please cut way back on sugar ingestion, avoid anything with caffeine in it, and be
sure to get the rest you need. Avoid alcohol. These things make the illness worse,
according to my psychiatrist.

Just thinking and sending some things I've learned your way. We are all different, however, so what works for one may not work for another. Ask your psychiatrist about the newer things being learned about vitamin C, and don't do anything without his/her advice, please

Genetic

[cocoabeans]

I'm starting to think I don't really have bipolar. I have an insight into the futility of existence which leads to a battle between wanting to just die already and life. "Mania" is a survival mechanism. Depression is realization. Unfortunately, I'm too dense to resolve this either by offing myself or some magic philosophy or religion so, the cycle continues.

[cocoabeans]

Bipolar is a great mechanism to make us think life isn't as futile. We're ill right? This isn't logic, it is pathological.

It makes sense that as wealth becomes common and religion is dismissed, more prescriptions for prozac are available.

Bipolar is the new jesus.

[~Christina]

I also get ridiculously upset over things often. I often wish I had a switch to just shut everything off for a while. Hopefully you will get thru this state soon... I do understand exactly how you feel.

(( Hugs ))