should probably get up and do something constructive..

but really hard to motivate myself today.

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COFFEE!!! might help!

I'm finding it hard to be motivated today too, but I am going to try the coffee thing. I'll let you know if it works

Oh yeah, don't forget the music! Not the depressive music either. No Evanescence! lol. Try some System Of A Down or Five Finger Death Punch or something like that!

Hahaha, that's funny you mentioned Evanescence, because I listen to that when I am depressed sometimes. :P

ended up logging in to 1 of my online games and playing with my friend kathrine who is also BP

had more of a conversation than a game, but well.... it helped.

I can relate. I can't seem to make it from the bedroom, same way yesterday. I have no motivation. I hate it when I do this to myself.

omg you guys crack me up... no evanescence allowed rofl i was lazy and made instant coffee today, it's not tasty and it's not doing the trick I'm still in my robe at 1:30pm But I better get my arse in gear, have to take my son to therapy at 3:30 and he relapsed with drugs the other night, I haven't confronted him yet. so I'm worried about the confrontaion we will have in front of the therapist. i'm worried about the relapse continuing. But the therapy has to happen, no way out... It's all for the best... I have sick worry in my tummy about it, so best to just go do it and get it over with... and breathe... and it will all be ok, right?

Ok.. So how did it go??? Is everything alright?

Thanks Dan It went ok, our therapist only took him in at first, I had texted her about what had been going on. Then I went in alone to talk to her for about 10mins. She says he feels like crap physically now and makes the connection that doing drugs = feeling like **** eventually. Have to just wait and see at this point, hopefully this is an isolated incident. But he's in a foul mood now, so i'm giving him his space. I'm trying not to flip out on him, but I did slam the car door angrily which I feel bad about now.