Dear Life:


Don't you remember me? Don't you F'n remember what I am capable of. I am the one who got things done that you said were impossible. I am the one that kicked your *** no matter of what you threw my way. I am the one you couldn't kill, couldn't beat, couldn't keep up with no matter how hard you tried.

And now I've almost let you won. You took my treatment, my condition, and used it against me. You made me feel like any time I got excited about anything that it was my condition instead of me. You made me feel like my drive was a bad thing. You made me feel that the things that made me ME, was a symptom of something bad, hypomania.

Well, I'm here to tell you that I'm back now. That I don't care anymore, and if you know what's best for you, you best back off. I may not have my hypo right now, and I may not have my depression, but I am still me, and I will kick your *** up one side and down the other now for what you have put me through. Bring it on life! Bring it! You have NEVER been able to keep me down and you never will. Not now, not ever!

You gave me parents that didn't care. Emotionally abusive. Ones that gave me money for drugs. Ha! I'm laughing now and they are lonely. I won! I'm not on any drugs. Won again! I beat suicide. Won again! I beat you in school. Don't you remember? I started picking fights with them just so I knew when it was coming! I won that too! I beat the depression and the mania. I WON DAMNIT! I WON!

And now that I have figured out what you are trying to do to me now, I will win again. You will never beat me, EVER! You will no longer make me feel like I am bad. You will never again make me feel that being strong and doing incredible things is a bad thing. You will learn the difference between being manic and being unstoppable. I will teach you that bipolar or not, that you will never again have this power over me.

I hate you life, and I feel no pity for you. I will continue to kick your *** and prove you wrong. So how's it feel life... to be beaten so much by one person? Must be hard to be you, isn't it? So one day... one awesome day, I will put the final nail in your coffin and send you on your way, along with all of my rage and hatred towards you, so you can reap what you have sown. On that day, yeah... you will hear my laughter as it's you that's left alone this time, to deal with everything you have given me. I know you are not strong enough, and I'm going to take such, such delight in watching you drown in it. You are not me, your not strong enough.

I know you hear me. Can you feel my anger? Are you reading this closely? You will never win. EVER!

Sincerely yours,
Can't wait!

Dan Greenberg

[BlueInanna]

Life- you just got owned *****... by Dan... and by me too.