...a little drift a little gift a man afloat beside an empty boat.

whirlpool mind sidewind, quick fool to unwind, can't find my own kind,
not crazy backward or even lazy?

....ok enough of the poet crap!

I'm tired of it, it's an anomoly of a nervous dis-order a psychiatric effect a way of assembling scattered information into focus......to make sense out of nonsense.

I live inside a metaphor
I am a ghost
I have no purpose
none that I am aware of
I am angry most of the time
I am easily upset
I avoid things because of this
I am bitter...I know I cannot be tolerated by others
I am at least 12 people in the one body....!

one to do what I do....the next to do what I should have done...another to do what others want me to do...another to do what I really wanted to do (to say F you to everyone)...the next to repeat what I should have done! ...a new one to make up some weird crap that makes no sense to anyone but the 'me' that backs the crap up somehow because I cannot do what I am supposed to do.

...a clever one to decide exactly what that is?

...another me that won't open the door and buries his head in the bed for days listening to the worst stuff I have ever heard forever and from my own head a NASTY me killing my heart with my own brain!

...and then there is the mystery me making sense of the hallucinations

...and the hyper-intelligent scariest of all that says to me it was all NOTHING!

and that's the worst kind of result because I SO much need meaning and I just took it all AWAY to save my F...king life

[Trippin2.0]

there are lots of you's cos 1 big you would make for 1 giagantic awesome lion and the kitties don't have the resources for getting shocked shitless. "take it easy on yourself... Cos no-one else will..."

.....ok

I really do pay attention to what you write Ophelia

[Trippin2.0]

I'm megaglad you do, cos I pay attention to you even when I think I'm in arrears! Seriously tho, i'm all warm and fuzzy inside

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

I'm megaglad you do, cos I pay attention to you even when I think I'm in arrears! Seriously tho, i'm all warm and fuzzy inside

...well Lia...from up here this crazy unknown but well adjusted I am world I see you too and I cannot miss you enough from here.



james