[Thoughtbubble]

Monday was a day for leaving class to cry. History class discussion of WWII was not helpful.Why do we always have to hurt each other? My imagination drifted and I felt as if I could feel generations of sadness and tension inside of myself and really the entire human race, ut this happens to me often. It is sadness for the suffering of brothers and sisters I never knew all over the world, dying, fighting, and scared at this very moment. Such numbness and intensity, and somehow simultaneous. Loneliness was the flavor of yesterday, I had dreamt the feeling of holding a partner. I do not want to forget what that feels like. Everyone else in college is so youthful and unburdened, or so they manage to appear. I think I must seem pretty cold and sarcastic to the untrained eye when I'm in a mood. In truth I am a mushball. I've been told that at times I look like an old man, to which I'd like to reply "sometimes I feel like an old man, but I am barely a man at all at 18. ask me again when I'm 40" I fear the damage that time has done and will do.

Thanks for listening.

[hamster-bamster]

You use your adjectives very skillfully.

[Thoughtbubble]

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

You use your adjectives very skillfully.

I like a good compliment . Just today I have begun putting some interesting madness in words, though for some time I have put my emotions into doodles,.some of the stuff I've wrote today is hard believe I would expose from the depths to written language and surely never utter. I'm too shy and perplexed to share a lot and I don't always trust the audience. it either flows right from my head onto paper, or the channel is pure static.

[Thoughtbubble]

I think ill transfer this to my profile

[Confusedinomicon]

I think being ignorant helps us live. You'll die one day, too, so it's best to stay in the present and try to think of that when it approaches.

Yea?

Nay?

I'm not sure.

[Anika.]

Happens to me too. How can we not feel that, it's a lot of truth. But everything in life has an opposite. Tho there is so much suffering, you still see those same people finding joy.

When you know kids living in war torn countries can still put it aside and find something to smile about. That starving people will still give their food to someone else in need. That a man whose leg has been blown off by by whoevers army and he can still put forth his hand in friendship to a member of opposition. That's also the stuff humans are made of, pretty amazing.

There is a lot of good in this world it just doesn't make headlines. the reason why, I dunno but I suspect a lot of misconseption about what people do want to hear about.

Doesn't make the suffering not happen, no. as much as I would love there to be no suffering, I wonder what that world might look like, and if it would be scary.

[Thoughtbubble]

I really like your signature quote Anika. Where did it come from?

[Anika.]

Originally Posted by Thoughtbubble

I really like your signature quote Anika. Where did it come from?

Thanks, it's actually talking about compost, a gardening site. I have always been a bit enarmoured by Marjory the trash heap from fragle rock. but the quote about compost I thought seemed pretty true.