I know I have to be right now, but I just hate it so much. I see what I want and it's attainable, just slightly out of reach. Months of waiting, planning, and plotting, each day increasing anxiety. I feel horrible about what I must do in the meantime, but it must be done. The only alternatives leave me on the permanent run from the law or in a body bag. Those aren't choices at all. I see sunshine on the other side of these clouds, but the clouds are terribly thick.

Love...hmmm....maybe it's addicting for me...?

[mazing]

Patience is definitely hard. Thinking of you

[Victoria'smom]

Hang in there, patients is so hard. We're here for you.

[hamster-bamster]

I just missed my train and decided to walk for 2 stops just because i'd rather walk than stand and passively wait. And, of course, was thinking of you!

Thank you so much Hamster. Hope all is well your way. Here's hoping you have a great day!

If things continue as last night,then maybe changes will occur sooner. My dad, without fully knowing my circumstances, seemed to have some amazingly accurate support recently. Everything just seems to be falling into place, but....months to go.