identity and episodes

..this is seriously disturbing for me...and just as disturbing for him

faced with the urge to explain it I'm suddenly wanting to make every effort to qualify everything thats not been an episode so far?...

into being one!...so in other words when I'm losing my mind and hilarious remarkable super-ordinary...then this is "normal"...for me

...and all my attempts during recovery from 'such events'...are in fact?...the episodes!

this is when it gets confusing...and this has been going on for years and maybe 850 years in alien time....and the urge to go abstract is so enormous I'm just gonna blow my nose on my T-shirt to bring me back thanks to where? .... why is it immediately disgusting now that it's out of my nose it aint poop!
my nose looked fine feels fine and my shirt just has moisture big deal!

it's hard to come back from being 'out there' for so long!

oh crap!!...and throw in all the damn meds...geez I forgot about that...lets not go there this time...lets keep it simple.

so who is who? and who is right and who is even more right?

bipolar don't ever want to be wrong don't go down that way there is no return.....so it's ok to call a recovery from an episode an equal but alternatively arranged episode!...YEAH?

why the hell would it not be called bipolar then?

it's not like polar_bi-half -olar!

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