it's ok to just throw it!

...yeah nor can I believe I am back again like this.

and I can be grateful...that there is still some spirit left.

....yes I want to improve...but also I don't want to be a damn human robot!...just to get by to make other people feel good about what they do I will never run parallel...never!...this is all I know I hate the absence of mania I hate the absence of entire personal realisation...I hate unselfishness......it's selfish not to share bipolar!

you wanna know why?

yeah?...well me too!

it's idiotic it's overconfident its dreaming it's hallucinating it's hearing the unheard it's seeing the unseen it's abandoning the world that abandoned me it's searching!

it's forced to search and find......it's being grateful and it's being honest and it's being wise but where is there room for that...?

this world is way too comfy for idiots like me

catch...