...does anyone drift all neat and tidy into places that meant nice things like they were good times and there was an 'example' of yourself there that was probably the best one maybe and it's so hard to let go and it's gone been gone for so long now you cannot recognise it but you can remember it?

and it's still you the same person here and now doing the remembering but it's a different you cos it aint the same no more like you really aint here at all but just the remembering part is left behind?

...not experiencing nuthin' just feelin loss and crap like that....like the body is just a burden for the brain there is nothing it just hangs off the emotions..

dangling stupid thing wobbling fleshy puppet tied to desperate personal strings and for what?

...I guess thats called despair!

[Anika.]

In all honesty James, I try not to do the remembering memories thing. I just don't go into the past often. When ever I have it's usually bad, and it isn't even there anymore, so I can't keep going back. Can't go ahead either cause that isn't here either. Guess I have to just stay here now, in the now. There is no where else for me to be.