I am forced to live this way... but you know... I take some pride!
what drives people? EMOTIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they are the meaning of life. they are the driving force behind everything people do. they are everything.

And I am a professional emotion handler!

I can deal with depression that would absolutely floor someone else, and deal with it with grace. I can make it through with the least amount of impact imagineable. I can make it through when I know that anyone else of 'normal' status would crumble and fall.

I am awesome that way! I deal with it and i make it look good! ha! not many people can say that!

i really do know what you mean.

i hate some of the stuff bipolar comes with, but if it were gone tomorrow... i'd be lost.

so used to living with it..

I would not be lost if it were gone tomorrow. I would make normal living look easy as **** after what i've been through. i would give anything to not have to do this anymore

Originally Posted by landskaperdan

I would not be lost if it were gone tomorrow. I would make normal living look easy as **** after what i've been through. i would give anything to not have to do this anymore

when you say " do this anymore" do you mean the illness, or life?

if you mean life, believe me... i've thought that many times and even acted on those thoughts.

with life... i think the reason i say what i say, is because i've had it for so long- since i was a child... and know very little of normal living.

so...

would be difficult to get used to

I mean this life. my onset was at age nine. I've had enough now... i'm tired. I guess I mean this way of life.