Adult Child with issues causing me bipolar issues

I don't know if anyone out there can relate to what is going on with me.

I have one child, a son who is 27.

Two years ago against my better judgement we let him and his longtime girlfriend move in with us. This was under the assumption that he was going back to school.

Well she went back to school and he continued to work. After a year she found someone else moved out and he stayed. Then the downfall begins. Later we find out he is addicted OxyContin, probably in part to deal with his depression. Goes to rehab twice. Learns about heroin in there. Steals all or stuff. In August we found him on the bathroom floor barely alive after overdosing. He had aspirated vomit,is deathly ill and spends a month in the hospital. Lost his job this time.

My husband didn't want to put him out on the street, well I didn't either. I was so afraid of him dying. So he has been at our house since September.

He has no money, and no car. At least he isn't buying drugs. He sits around most of the time doing nothing.

He doesn't want to do therapy. He doesn't even want to help his Dad. My Husband is trying to push him into going into the Navy. Nothing is happening.

Seeing him almost die, afraid he might still, watching him waste his life, well of course I am depressed out of my mind.

I can't see myself getting better, under this situation, and I don't see it changing.

So many times I just want out, I feel so hopeless.

I think that he won't be able to move forward until he is healed. I feel that drug addiction is a soul shattering event in life. To move forward, you not only have to get over the addiction, but get passed the root problems that lead to it. I have a cousin who was able to break free of it. He was a teen when he got into drugs and he's almost 40 years old now. But it took him multiple stints in prison as well as seeing friends die.

As for you, you need to take care of yourself, whatever that may be. He needs to find his road but no one can force him to it. But maybe if you work toward healing it will inspire him to also start working in that direction. Just a thought.

Not sure what to say or advice to offer but wanted to give you some hugs

Be kind to yourself