sometimes I think... what can anyone else do to me? Seriously...
what is the worst that ANYONE can possibly do?
what... beat me up..lol.... yeah, right!
so what is it that I am so worried about.
no one can really do anything to me
or about me

why am I so worried?
i don't know why...
it's these emotions..
they are bigger than life...

they are the reason i continue to play this game
this horrible game with my wife

she can't handle if i am not right
it's an urgent emergency
if I am depressed or hypo....
or even when my emotions are mixed...
if I bounce my leg for more than a second...
she has to ask if i'm okay....
but if i say no....
then she goes into panic mode....

i want to call her a selfish ***** for this....
keeping me on guard....
but why should i bother doiing that anymore....

how bad would it be to just be alone....
i have kids

and it would be my fault...
but can I take that blame???????????
i dont' know......

[bluekoi]

Anonymous32896, Thanks for sharing!