I don't want to seem like this is attention getting behavior. It's really not. My account was supposed to be deleted by now, but it's not. I logged on to talk to Sabby about it but then saw some posts i couldn't ignore... So I told Sabby not to cancel my account. I don't want to be that person that gets attention by threatening to leave all the time but I feel that I have become that person. I also feel that so many people are pissed at me for what I did with the other member a few days back.

I'm trying to make sense of it.

anyone on that wants to talk?

[ArthurDent]

Dan,
You're worrying too much. Nobody sees you as "that guy", and if you look at a few of the posts from the person you're referring to, I don't think they are too upset either. Everyone here seems to be going through alot right now. We all have our issues. But that means we all "get it" too when someone else has temporary issues. No worries, Dan. Just carry on

I have huge issues with attention getting behavior. You think it is ok to just carry on like nothing happened?

I don't know why I acted the way that I did. I lashed out at the person unfairly. does that person want to talk?

no drama this time, i promise

[faerie_moon_x]

I think one of the main things a lot of us have to learn is how to let go of things. If it's resolved, then let it go, don't cling on to it. Just move forward.

Pretend you're a river. A river can't go backwards. Once the rocks and rapids have passed, the river calms and smooths out, continuing forward and not backward. The only thing that stops a river is to build a dam and force it. So, looping negative thoughts are the dam, turning you into a lake, and keeping you stuck. So, don't be a lake, be a river.

[Anika.]

Exactly what Arthur said Dan.. keep calm and carry on.

And don't decide what I or we feel for us k. If we say we are not pissed..we are not.

I am not, stuff happens....to everyone.

If this were someone else, what would you think? I bet you would understand

I am unforgiving when it comes to myself. I guess I just wanted to talk to the person and apologize. I assume that everyone is pissed at me. I don't handle that well. it's hard to just jump back in there, you know?

[Speed3]

Just stay we love and need you, end of story!

[Anika.]

Dan maybe pm the person then would be better idea?

One thing about you Dan is that you always take accountability, some people can't do that or even reflect back and see what they did. It's a good quality to have. You and this other person share those qualities, so I am sure it is already passed.

I just need the person to hear me. You were right. I really screwed up. And I took it out on you. i am here to say that I am sorry. I have learned to not mention names, and it's out of respect. I just hope you see this and know that I am really sorry and that I won't act that way again.

I don't want to pm cuz i wouldn't blame the person for not wanting to talk to me, and all I want to do is apologize so there is no disrespect by posting this on the thread.

I guess I'm projecting my feelings on the board. I'm really good at that. I'll try to be mindful of it and stop myself from doing it.

[roads]

Things happen ... We cope, learn, grow ... We move on
It's a process.

I just want to make it right so I can move on.

[unaluna]

Two things, if I may interject. One way work and everything else is different from the way we were raised is that, once we say we're sorry and we won't do it again, it's pretty much forgotten. It was such a liberating moment for me when I realized this. My mother wouldn't let you forget anything!!

The 2nd thing is, when I first joined here, I described it to T as having a revolving slamming door. We slam the door, go around a spin or two, then we're right back in. I never knew you could slam a revolving door, but here you can! It's great!

Okay. Well... I am sorry and no, I won't take it out on those around me again. I just hope that the person hears me when I say that. I'll let this thread die, and if that person ever wants to talk, I am here.

[shlump]

Originally Posted by Roadie

Things happen ... We cope, learn, grow ... We move on
It's a process.

YES!

As always, Roadie, you are wise beyond this experience we share. You must have been around on this Earth before.

Thank you for sharing. You give us such hope and strength and an understanding we might not be able to have without your thoughts.

Thank you.

[venusss]

Dan, it's fine. Yes, I was bit ticked off by being used as example, but we all make mistakes. You stood up to it, and that's what counts.

thank you. I needed to know that we were ok. thank you.

[Victoria'smom]

Dan if you need a few days take it. If you find yourself not wanting to come back after 2+ wks then delete your account. We've all have taken breaks and just lurked no one is mad at you and you should stop being mad at yourself.

thank you. I'm not running anymore....

[~Christina]

Dan,

Just let this place be "the place" were you can relax, Allow yourself to just... be.

it is my place to stand. I realized that today. I will never have a place to fit in if I don't find a place to stand. well, this is my place.