[venusss]

yes, I may come off *****y lately, but it's been stressful time for me. Thesis and the defence. then studying thousands pages of worth of material... was hard. was going crazy and losing touch with reality while trying to cram in wars and human rights.
well, i am done off to job hunting. I may be paranoid, but it feels half of the ads there is scam. Trying to write down why I believe still in people and non-profit sphere for motivation letters... while I feel may the world ended... long time ago and human rights are a distraction from the crap. crazy has lots shades :/

clingy mom who's 60 but already talks dying and getting old. says she wants to buy a two generation housing with me in prague. I need space... but i am the only one she has. I don't know what to do. i would have to pretend a lot. but i don't want her to go crazy when alone.

so yeah, i am snappy. especially when i feel judged or looked down at.

i have my stances. some are out there. I know i don't belong. politically, spiritually, sexualy (non-horny bisexual girl? who likes those?). so I get defensive. overly defensive.

and yet, I wanna apologize if I did piss off anybody. It's certainly not my intention. it just shows how bad diplomat venus is.

[manicminer]

More power to ya, Venus. Keep on keepin on, no matter what it takes.

Best wishes and good luck, my dear.

[BlueInanna]

You've accomplished so much, Venus, and worked so hard for it. I really admire you. Too bad you aren't a horny bisexual girl like me, and on other side of planet. Actually I'm not so horny as usual, pretty exhausted today.
You have to take the hug because you wrote 'self-pity' in your thread!

[TheDragon]

BlueInanna's right you know...You HAVE to accept hugs now. It's what you get with self pity threads, free of charge! Don't worry though, it's not a limited time offer.

Realistically speaking, job ads often advertise positions that are already filled or partially filled by employees currently working there. Positions are often entertained just for the potential rather than a definite need. But regardless, you know where your passions lay, and you know the road you have ahead of you is not the easy one. Stick with it. Find the kind of crazy within that gives great men and women persistence

You know that I'm a judgmental misanthrope that rarely makes friends, but you're someone I happily and proudly call friend. you are without a doubt one of the most intelligent, talented and capable people I have ever met. Take a deep breath, ease up, and tough it out.

Don't ever stop being you.

I'd offer you a hug, but I'm pretty sure you'd string me up and ramble me to death with politics and random over the top music, before shooting me with an AK or bombing me

[Trippin2.0]

You've been through a huge amount of stress Venus, being high-strung or sensitive is to be expected. Take it easy on yourself, allow Venus to chill out for a while, and find her bearings before charging forward. You will make a success of whatever path you decide to take...

...you are very cool venus

I wish I had the same intensity and the same integrity...and an ability to share it too.

A Warm, Heartfelt For VenusHalley ...

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Pfrog

I think that you have achieved a lot. You have achieved what most people only dream about. You should be proud of that. I wish you luck on your journey, I really do. and I wish you luck in life, and hopefully a drama free life, free of people accusing you of things.

[Darth Bane]

Sigmund freud said every man and woman has innate ability to be bisexual at some point in his/her life. So in a way you are one of the most normal person here

and i am atheist dear ... so unless you are Scientologist or something you are not as politically outcast as me .....

since you work in non profit/altruistic things and i guess you are asking why people are being so selfish and stupid, why dont you read that book by richard dawkings- "selfish genes" ...

its the thing dear our unconscious mind controls our conscious mind by planting the ideas of helping each other,being nice to each other.

think about it when one is given chance to save his brother or his cousin he will save his brother , since one's brother share more genes than his cousins.another fact is mother loves child more than father because father can never be as sure as mother that it is really his child

parents love child more than child loves them because parents are old and should time come they are genetically engineered to sacrifice for their child and save their gene structure.

so those human rights,good in people ...dont think too much about it. I think you heard stories of dolphin saving drowning human ... its just one mamal saving another .. dolphins breathe air you know. So understand your motivations , maybe your unconscious mind is deceiving you

do you raally think you are bad

nice !! listen to this song its one of my favorite

[~Christina]

Venus ! you have done so much, worked so hard, and have seen things many of us could not handle. You are going to make a difference in this world. We all get 8itchy and snappy at times, No worries . One small lump of drama here is forgotten when the next lump appears.

Enjoy your success !

[venusss]

Thanks everybody.

[bjames]

Im brand new here as of today...Was that drama? I thought you had every right to feel as you do and admire how much you have accomplished!! Im 42 and pretty much all Ive accomplished is raising 2 great people. And I agree that most people entertain bisexual tendencies like was said by your friend above. I am and thru my life Ive known many...we are everywhere!! Oh and a big hug to you too!!

[Lauru]

Just saw this thread, been off a couple of days. Ah, but Venus, you do belong. You belong BECAUSE you are different with different ideas and such. that is just one of the many beautiful things about you. I am very glad that you are here and sharing no matter what kind of day you are having. You always make me think. deeply. And that is ALWAYS a good thing. I'll settle for giving you a good pat on the shoulders instead of a hug.

[Anika.]

You belong here Venus, just fine. It might be ok that I am here too, fit in? No, I freaking love life!! Plus I got that whole optimism thing going on... I don't fit in many places with that attitude, nevermind the rest of my "quirks" to put it nicely. I don't even know what shape I would be. What I know is that I am glad you are here. I am glad you were here when I came here a few years ago. You may not realize how much you gave me, and that you helped guide and create a lot of change in my own life.

So glad is not perhaps the right word without a thankful attached to it. And I am thankful you were here, giving the input you did. I noticed, I payed attention and took from it what I could and it did matter. The pixels of what you typed here didn't go in one retina and out the other.

Do you think I would have got here without your help and at the right time too? I think my kids and family would thank you for that help too. It's a big deal to me, and not trying to go all sappy on you but it is sappy.

Might not be world changing but you helped me change my world. That's a very good thing for me and the other people in my life.

Getting off my medications was the best thing I have probably ever done for myself. Where would I have gotten the idea that I could even do that ? Changing how I approach the whole thing, who could have inspired such ideas?? ........

So I do want to say thank you, for all of that.

[Anika.]

I could send you hugs and you might not even know about it heh, hows that for creepy...

[faerie_moon_x]

Well Venus, I think you're a pretty great person actually. I like having you around here. You've got a huge heart! You say you want to save the world and you're actually taking steps to do that! That's amazing! Sure maybe you're just at the job hunt stage, but at least you're that far, and not the "I sit on the couch and complain, but I won't do anything about it" stage like so many other people.

I think you belong here and we all get in snippy moods. That's normal. Especially when stressed out. If you didn't have that, then you'd be weird. You're not weird.

You belong here.