[Darth Bane]

I was in really really good mood just few hours ago.... and i have done nothing drastic in this time... just doing normal work and still i am feeling like this now

Wish I could say those magic words that opens the door so you could step out of it. Depression sucks. I hate it. I always have depression followed by hypo when I cycle and my episodes are mostly mixed. Just be safe man, it will pass!

[Darth Bane]

thanks landskaperdan .... i was hoping this mania will last... after 2-3 years of depression i am just waiting for 4-5 years of "normal mood" ... it seems i have to wait for little longer... perhaps i should start meds... if only they didnt have these many side effects

it really hits you hard, right?

i hate when you just come crashing down back to depression- in fact, i think their's another idea for a thread in their

[Darth Bane]

i hate to be in this grey area....... it should be either depressed or excited... when you are in between its worse..... its like i am not myself... not at my best... i cant give my 100% to anything..... its just prolonged pain... only achievement i can boast is i am not thinking about suicide anymore.... its annoying.......

[~Christina]

So sorry you are going through this mess. There are ways to help how you feel, Yes there are meds, Changes in diet, Meditation, Hypnotherapy.

Oh and just because go on medications does NOT mean you will always need them, Side effects can be avoided or at least manageable, Explain to your Pdoc what you need and expect from medications.

Hope you have a soft landing

you're in no mans land bro!

it's a shithole!

just chat about it if you want...?

not much else will happen till it goes away

[Darth Bane]

one-two years on lithium wont be that bad or harmful for the kidneys i guess... normally i am able to get out of this depression after couple of years of ... dont know why its not happening yet.... perhaps my bipolar is getting worse... August, September, October were great but last three months -November, December, January not so much...

love to chat about it james.... i guess i just have to wait till its all over.... ouch, but my head... it hurts... its stress headache not normal headache......

[BlueInanna]

Originally Posted by Darth Bane

i hate to be in this grey area....... it should be either depressed or excited... when you are in between its worse..... its like i am not myself... not at my best... i cant give my 100% to anything..... its just prolonged pain... only achievement i can boast is i am not thinking about suicide anymore.... its annoying.......

Well said, that's exactly how I've been feeling recently, you just easily put it in words. Yes so damn annoying. I'm telling it to pick a freaking direction already so we know what we're dealing with and get it over with.

[Clinte89]

I feel ya bane it sucks that's all there is to it it just terrible and unfortunately there is not much that can help other than just keep pulling through. I wish you luck pulling out of this mess.