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Feb 14, 2013, 10:30 AM
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...so I met this idiot see like a real fool see like a total nut!
....and likewise this total nut met me this fool did see this idiot was me! some clown suggested why do I keep posting?...despite being hurt by it? ...I am so freaking lonely in this life like the real comfort has left me behind to enjoy itself elsewhere. I am so freaking unpredictable I doubt there is a place for me to hide even when I'm dead! what does one do with a demolished mind what does one attach to after the thinking dies? and the feeling lies? I expected to be a mess today and even worse tomorrow...so what about now? I don't want sympathy I don't want anything all I want to do is to explain myself ....just how ridiculous I am meticulous insane! I don't want empathy I don't want everything all I want to do is complain all by myself...just how meticulous and ridiculous insane! my heart is dead...I am abusive I am angry I am wrong... I am dangerous...violent...abrasive I am dangerous ...silent ...evasive! there is a point to everything I do... I am so angry I am so contorted delicate I am so useless I am so defensive... I was born to disagree...I'm so sick of writing "I"... but I cannot handle "you".. Me ?...I'm not one to mishandle even the best confusion because it's marvelous to be confused to suddenly suggest there was something else that mattered more? ..so rip the soul away...take it away and it's such a popular thing to do... and what a stupendous miracle of philosophy! ....nobody knows? ...and in the absence of knowledge?... only comfort! James... boy man...thing? ALIEN...WTF? I can hardly move... I am very sick of movement I'm sick. my brain has adjusted and re-adjusted...mal-adjusted and re-adjusted. this place exists for the intimate combustion of emotions... mental health is such a marvelous mystery and I still cannot believe those that run this place still let me freak out like I do... and I cannot believe I let them let me? so my room is a space and all my life exists in a space and I'm out of space tiny inadequate frustrated useless terrible friend...hopeless mismanaged unfortunate! like I know how to "love" anybody...I just feel it... then I fall apart ...so I met this idiot see like a real fool see like a total nut! ....and likewise this total nut met me this fool did see this idiot was me! |
 pegasus, ~Christina
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Feb 14, 2013, 10:37 AM
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Oh James, your words touch me everytime and you say you don't want empathy but I can't help but need to give it after reading that!
 Ps. Here is the place to freak out as and when you need to and often times I need to freak out with you!
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Feb 14, 2013, 02:16 PM
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Actually, we all want empathy. This place let you freak yourself out. That is empathy. But you don't know you want it. Maybe this is why you don't know why you are here at this place. If there is some little tiny bit of empathy for you, just take it! Who knows what it will do to you.
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Feb 14, 2013, 02:29 PM
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If we can't freak out here, where can we?
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Feb 14, 2013, 02:36 PM
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Feb 14, 2013, 02:39 PM
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Either your writing is getting better or I'm getting worse...?
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Feb 14, 2013, 02:43 PM
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