[dubblemonkey]

yep here I go again likely making a fool of myself..I will make an effort not to offend anyone!...

it's no big deal this one I'm just trying to figure out how to translate my expression?...as always!

...so I had a dream about a McDonalds hamburger!

it was a delicious looking thing!...

it really was....! just like the pictures on the wall in the shop!

today I was compelled to consume one....

and as I sat there eating this edible deformity...I just made the most of it I guess!

I was hungry

and a little later I had this urge to return and yell at the manager!..."I want the burger in the damn picture!"

what I got was like a burnt cow fart in a soggy bun with half a veggie garden chopped with an axe and barely any sauce!

...then I got to thinkin'...yep!

full on because I typically always go on the attack and rip everyone to pieces!

...'the burger on the wall was assembled by expert marketing humans people and it likely took them 8 hours to set the damn thing up...well paid Audi driving wine rack silk sheeters!'

...and the version I paid for was made as best he or she could cheap shoes tight jeans dented uninsured car driving but mum and dad loves them anyway and they made it best they could in 30 seconds!

hell I used to cook for KFC when I was a teenager...
I did experiments on the chicken and managed to triple coat the stuff for an awesome result...cos there aint ever enough crispy...but I umm got in trouble for doing my chicken experiments!

...so the expectations are way too high....and it's luctrative to embed the presumption!

my Maccas super burger fell to pieces after 3 quarters through it....compared to the picture on the wall it was a disaster!...
but I got fed...

now here goes the irony!...

I can no longer hide behind a picture on the wall I am so exposed..
horrendous!...distasteful!...a disaster...not even smart...barely edible

I cough myself up each day and spit myself out and then the gag reflex I swallow me back inside!

and I lose it so easily my temper is irrational....but tonight I thought about that kid making that burger....and he or she did the best they could..

I really hate being this placid...it's more than just food!

but what I realised is that my illnesses have primed me to find the worst things in everything and ?

whats...most disturbing about that?

I am only seeing the worst things about me...

hell aint it good I eat alone?....thats way to complicated for anyones dinner to be

(by the way....monkeyman has sent me in a spin!....I much prefer my old name)

and neither are really it!

james

[pegasus]

McD - what I got was like a burnt cow fart in a soggy bun with half a veggie garden chopped with an axe and barely any sauce!

Yes very disappointing, are you sure it was cow fart and not horse fart, we have contaminated horse meat instead of beef over here! I know your rant wasn't really about all that but I'm glad you can rant because it's not good to hold it all in - that leads to depression. Pfft!

dm/mm/James

[dubblemonkey]

Originally Posted by pegasus

McD - what I got was like a burnt cow fart in a soggy bun with half a veggie garden chopped with an axe and barely any sauce!

Yes very disappointing, are you sure it was cow fart and not horse fart, we have contaminated horse meat instead of beef over here! I know your rant wasn't really about all that but I'm glad you can rant because it's not good to hold it all in - that leads to depression. Pfft!

dm/mm/James

coulda' bin a horse fart...!...and grilled in goats breathe?

I don't know what I'm talkin' about now....having weird flashbacks to the original fast-food board meetings!

yes depression is pfft!

I think I might just be overwhelmed and exhausted....tierd of fighting all the time...

....I guess I imagined and experienced that it's ok to just relax a bit and let the world do all it's own crap!...

cos really?

whats' it got to do with me?

[BlueInanna]

The world lies and it's not ok. Advertising and marketing, they give you this but you paid for that. Maybe this is why I'm not such a great business woman. Only the highest quality, only the best deal for the customer, only the best pay and benefits for the employees... Leaves me deep in debt with no future and no money left for me.

I would like my privacy and to be viewed as the pretty picture on the wall. I too feel so exposed. But I'm not taking anyone's money based on a picture of myself.

Maybe I can make a new picture of myself, I know we can reinvent ourselves. The course things are going for me doesn't leave me much choice but to somehow change almost everything I'm doing cuz it's not working out. I've got to change, I am changing, no way out of it.

[pegasus]

Oh BTW James, you can ask for your name to be changed back, you need to PM sabby or Christina but not DocJohn as he is too busy.

[Victoria'smom]

Okay... Ewwy about the hamburg. I always expect the one in the picture each and each and every time I get disappointed. I almost always set our plates to look picture -esk. to me that's as important as cooking it.

James, you are a pretty picture but not the one on the wall because that's to simple. Those simple pictures are made to fade into the background. Your made to be a centerpiece not to fade.

[~Christina]

James,

Yes all the pretty food from all kinds of eating in general, models? perfect bodies ? Ha doesn't exist. The only perfection I have every seen in life is from nature and the love one person has for another, not a romantic love do I speak of .. Just Love for another person and expecting nothing in return ,, yet it returns 10 fold..

Love is what keeps me alive and happy